can't run from myself, there's nowhere to hide

I got straight emo when the Whitney Houston video I have nothing came on this morning... I don't know why today but this title is paying homage to her! 

There is a new guy that is on a team in cube nation and he is just so happy to have a job!  You ever see one of those people?!?  He is maybe mid 40’s (or older or younger I can never tell LOL) and he is just HAPPY!!  People can get very jaded and cynical and it is refreshing (even though he looks a little crazy some days) to see people who are happy to be right where they are. 

I have a lil cold right now and I’m a little pissed because I got my flu shot and I feel as though I should not get sick EVER!! It’s not that I feel bad, but my sinuses decided that they just gonna close! My right nostril has been closed since Monday.  I mean I can breathe some of the time.  I’m sitting here at work with my humidifier with eucalyptus on, my tissue (2 kinds with and without lotion), hand sanitizer, and OF COURSE Vaseline.  OH and my mirror so that I can check my nose often to make sure no snot is running down my face and that a boogie is not just hanging out.  I probably need to go get some more drugs.  AND I probably should have stayed home.  I’m not that strapped for cash but home is not really a resting place. My mother demands so much of my time with not a care… wait that’s not fair she has dementia so it’s not that she doesn’t care, but she doesn’t remember that other people have needs.  Last night I said I am going to make myself some tea. She decided she needed some tea also.  But tea for her means it has to have brown sugar and only filled ½ up and it needs an ice cube because I have to hold it so she can sip it through a straw.  Meanwhile I just want to sip on my tea.  Then she needs a piece of candy.  She has already had several cookies and her hands show it because they are dirty and so I need to clean them but she is a HUGE child so touching her hand means she has to flinch and yell out YOU HURT MY HAND!! And I just say fuck it and go lay on the couch.  She then realizes she didn’t get her candy and calls me back in the room.  And I indulge her because what is one more piece of candy gonna hurt? I know I was in a horrible mood yesterday.  I had to bite my tongue more often than usual when I talked to a few people because I was not feeling well.  But today I feel a little better so we’ll see how today goes.

I was listening to a podcast  ‘Friend Zone’ and they were talking about a version of the Meyers Briggs personality test that you can go online and get your information for free.  I went to the website www.16personalities.com and did the test.  My personality name is Campaigner and my letters (?) are ENFP –A which I know means something specific but I didn’t see what it was.  It’s a test that you answer several questions that are able to dictate your personality.  I thought it was pretty cool and accurate.  I would like for my friends to do it so we can see who’s who and what’s what.

I just bought some Allegra or at least the CVS brand and I hope this helps the dry me up and for me to stop sneezing.  I also bought more Vaseline or at least CVS brand (wow I was being cheap today LOL) because I need the moisture!!!

A girlfriend of mine who shares the same birthday as me celebrated her birthday ALL month.  Not because she was turning a particular age that’s just what she wanted to do! One of her events was a Dance Palooza or a Zumba party.  Now 2 years ago I could hang with the best of them.  I was in better shape even though I was about the same size.  But this Saturday my body was like bitch please!!!  It was so stiff.  I knew I was gonna need several advil after.  I had a great time and it was fun but I have got to get my body together.  And it’s not even a vanity thing because, let’s face it, there will always be a dude who likes the thick ones, but it is a heart thing.  I am taking high blood pressure meds and I need to get off.  And we all know I’m an infomercial junkie and if you didn’t NOW you know.  Yep I bought the Shaun T’s new video Cize!  Let’s forget that I already have Hip Hop Abs, T25, 10 minute trainer, Turbo Jam, The Firm Express and a few more but I needed the newest thing so I got it.  BTW... I love Amazon Prime! You just order and the shit comes right to your house in 2 days!! I haven’t tried out the Prime Now but I hear you can order ice cream and it comes good and still frozen within the hour. Not that you want ice cream in this weather but hey it’s an option. Ok back to celebrating random birthdays… it think we all should do it more often. Life is way too short and you never know.  A soror of mine had a 74^th birthday for her mom because WHY not?!?!  I don’t think you should wait for a significant age to celebrate.  DO it now!

WHY DON’T I HAVE POCKETS!!! Why do you designers make women’s pants without freaking pockets?!  I’m headed to a meeting and I need to stick a few tissues in my non-existent pockets. DAMN DAMN DAMN!!!!

And I’m sipping on tea.  It’s of some herbal variety not real all that good but hopefully it’ll push this bug outta me.  Why do I need to know who played the Sheila Dixon on the Wire character right this second.  Lawd I know why but that explanation will be way too long… SO yeah the same chick that is now on Chicago Med AND Hitch.   My brain is a beautiful thing!!