Stopped to watch my emotions sway!

This week has been rougher than I needed for it to be.  My cousin who I grew up with passed away suddenly on Sunday 8/22... the same day as my oldest nephew's birthday AND the same day as my father's funereal 20 years ago. So this date already has been bittersweet and now I have more bitter to add to the day unfortunately.  My cousin was generally a good person, God fearing, good father. There is so much I could say. What I will say is this one hit different! He was in a car accident earlier this summer and had to have surgery as a result. Everything went well as far as we knew, but several months later, he passed away. I've just been sad and everyone is saying nice things on Facebook and that makes it that much harder.  This one was not expected at all.  He had 2 kids; 18 who just graduated from high school and the other 12 in middle school.  I don't know how it is to lose a father that young.  I lost my dad in my late 20's.  It is still very surreal!  I couldn't look at him real hard in the casket because even though they did a good job, that wasn't him.  I want to be cremated!  Not sure where I want to be sprinkled but that is the plan! Maybe a few on my family member's graves (wait is that weird?).  My uncle was put in the casket with my grandfather (that was weird because they didn't like each other... although to be fair, I'm pretty sure my grandfather didn't like most people).  And we are done with casket and cremation talk!

I was listening to the song 'Just Got Paid' by Johnny Kemp and the lyrics as I thought them to be:

Just got paid, Friday night

Party hunting, place is right

Booty shaking, all around

Know one thing; that I'm getting down

I just went to the 'official lyrics and they was wrong wrong wrong!!!  BUT What I heard on the radio this fine AM was... well all of the above EXCEPT the Know one thing said.. POURED ONE DRINK NOW I'M GETTING DOWN!!  Why was I in my car like this truly blew my mind?!?!  All this time I thought he was saying KNOW ONE THING!!! Not POURED ONE DRINK!!! **mind blown emoji** LOL

This one was the blog queued up, well kinda sorta.  It has been several weeks and let's see... I went RVing (well RV light as my niece would say).  She found the RV on Air BnB and rented it. I mean it was cute to do, but I promise I'm good!  I don't have to relive that ever again!!  I realized (well this ain't no new realization) that I like luxury (on a budget LOL).  The space was a little tight, and with 4 real grown adults and 2 small kids, it was interesting.  There was a clubhouse across the way that had a bigger/regular bathroom cause, none of us were trying to clog up nothing! My baby niece who is 1 is very demanding.  I took the handful of blueberries out of her hand so that she could eat them 1 at a time, after she stopped yelling at me, she would tap my hand so that I could feed her blueberries.  It basically was, since you won't let me do it my way, FEED ME (bitch is implied LOL)!!!  The baby nephew who is 4 has way too much energy for me! I must say, there is a huge difference to being an aunt when I was 15 and being an aunt at 47.  I'm just tired.  So when he is revving up I have to say 'Baby, Aunt Tauf does not want to fight right now (or ever!)'.  His parents recently put him in soccer, so lets hope that helps with his energy.  We did make it to Assateague where the wild horses were supposed to be roaming on the beach.  We saw a few horses, and I did get to dip (literally cause it was a gloomy/rainy day and I didn't wear my suit) my toe in the water; that was cool!

It has now been several more weeks... I am not so god with the blogging LOL I went to Florida which yadda yadda yadda, I talked about in the previous blog.  I did a quick lil trip to Atlantic city with my boyfriend which again I dipped my toe.  So if we are counting, I have dipped my toe 4 times this year!!!  Rehobeth back in May, Florida, Ocean City, and then Atlantic City!!  I can't really complain.

It has been yet even more more weeks.... and I need to go ahead and edit this thing and post it.  I will say that I am in one of my bi-weekly work meetings.  What I love is that I have a co-worker that I actually like and can joke about people during the meeting!  That is all I will say about that because you know, I like to try to pretend to protect the innocent.

And now my random thought for right now is that I need a  French Toast do over this weekend.  I went to a place last week not too far from my house and the French toast was terrible AND expensive.  I really want to give this place another try, but it's going to be a good long minute before I do because I don't like to waste money, nor calories.  I might have to hit up Sugar Mama's or Miss Shirley's.  Hell even Double T Diner would have been way better!  And I'm getting mad all over again at those pieces of bread that didn't soak in any kinda egg solution.  

but yo, I don't know what to tell ya!

 I had another blog queued up and ready to go but then I went to Florida on an airplane and I got some stuff to say.  First of all... Southwest, I thought we had an understanding that you were not going to have people in the center seat?  It worked well for me going down, but coming back home... Those mofos sold EVERY SINGLE SEAT and then some on that flight.  And, had I known that, I would have NOT had my bag on the seat when all of the people under 150 pounds walked back.  Now what I have never claimed to be was a little chick, but babaaay, the woman that sat beside me was very ample in size. And I looked at her and her 5 bundles of wet and wavy hair, caterpillar eyelashes, and long nails and thought a few different things.  I don't want to body shame because big girls are sometimes just big girls!  I'm more annoyed with Southwest than her. I just wished she didn't move around so much, and I wish I didn't miss the beverage service (wait... was there beverage service?!?), and I wish my arm and leg didn't go to sleep, I wish the flight attendant didn't make the announcement that we needed to keep our masks up when Southwest knew damn well they didn't care nothing about no social distancing, by booking the whole damn flight, like yes we can help to curb the transmission but shit, SHIT!!! REALLY Y'ALL... but you know... I made it safely home!  

On to the time in between the fuckery of Southwest... I went to Florida and had a great time!!  I hadn't seen my cousin or aunt in over 2 years and that is just unacceptable!  Over the last few years so many things have happened and it was just impossible to get down there.  SO I'm just glad that I was able to slow down a bit and hop on a plane and go lay eyes on my family!  My cousin picked me up and when we got to the house there was a soror sitting with my aunt and my aunt IMMEDIATELY says 'Oh the baby is here! '  And I don't know why this always throws me off, cause I have to say out loud to remind myself that I am 47 whole ass years old!! And if we being technical 47 3/4... REAL close to 48 and even closer to 50 which I know don't make sense but whatever!  And I can shake it off pretty quickly, because saying, I'M A GROWNUP makes you sound stupid!!  I am real grown as Ms. Evelyn Braxton would say.  Anyways, I get there on a Friday and we didn't do much Friday.  Saturday was 'pool day' interrupted by a crazy midday Florida down pour.  Their pool is so close to the house, almost a private pool for them.  And jeez, just thinking when the last time I've been in a pool?!?!  Huh... it's been several long minutes.  Sunday we went to The Orange Blossom Classic which was a game between FAMU and Jackson State.  This will serve as my Homecoming.  I haven't made it to Virginia State's homecoming in more years than I care to even think about!  So to see 2 amazing HBCU bands was a-freaking-mazing!! (I just said amazing twice.. that's ok carry on LOL) And, it was all in the comfort of a great suite!! I love when my people are in the know! There was chicken and vodka and Pepsi and water in a can (not sure why the Aquafina couldn't come in a plastic bottle... but whatevs), even some rose in a can.  It was really just good fellowship and a good time! Not really sure what happened during the actual game, but what I do know is those folks are serious about their teams and colors!  I have seen more para than I have before EVER!   Monday we went to this great Greek restaurant and then the beach!  I mean, how do I go all the way to Florida and not dip my toe in the ocean?!  We drove up to the beach and found a great spot.  The water was wonderful and I already miss it! At some other point we went to this local spot, Catfish Dewey's, that had all you can eat catfish; man it was so good!! I am now plotting my voyage to a local spot in Baltimore that has catfish because I need more!!

I need to understand why this one security guard makes it a point to come into this office to use the bathroom!?!?  Like WHY  SIR????  He then chats with whomever is available (never me though cause.... it clearly is a man thing and I am so ok with that LOL) and then leaves. And he has a big butt... ijs.  That always throws me off as well cause he's white, but white guys can have big butts, and they can't jump (LOL... I'm chuckling to myself).

You know what really grinds my gears, people NOT responding to emails.  It's like I gave you several days, you ain't that fucking busy buddy!!  And this goes for work and personal.  And I know things can get lost in the sauce but COME ON!

I'm not sure when I turn into the cheetah print chick but I am her!!  And I just got of the QVC website (don't judge my life) and there were these little sneakers with snake and other animal prints.  I immediately gravitated toward the cheetah print!  Like for real WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN?!?!?