You could be the point of letting it go

I have to come out a self-proclaimed hiatus to talk about this damn movie ‘Mea Culpa’.  First off it is a Tyler Perry movie, expectations were low to say the very least.  I don’t HATE TP movies but they are formulaic and just terrible most of the time in the best way possible; but they generally are a good time! **SPOILER ALERTS**

The premise of the movie is that a known artist has killed his most recent lover (but you gotta say it like lovaaah) and the defense lawyer, Mea, is the sister-in-law of the prosecuting attorney who is trying to bring him down.  Because he has killed this woman, there are other women protesting the gallery where his art is hanging.  Now from the jump, Mea who is married to this man who lost his job apparently because he got caught drinking or using drugs (I can’t remember) and doesn’t want to tell his family, but I had an instant dislike of him.  AND then the crazy white mother who raised 2 black sons but hates BOTH of their wives.  Mississippi from P-Valley is the wife of the prosecuting attorney and she has a hard way to go in this movie too (cause in P-Valley she has the white husband who basically beats the shit outta her and when she had the chance to leave she fumbled it).  I need for her to catch a break.  Mea goes to the judge to ask for a special waiver so that she could defend Zyair played by the usually sexy Trevante Rhodes, but something was a lil off for me in this movie, maybe he didn’t smile enough or something.  Anyways the judge KNOWS they are related but allows Mea to defend him. And then she goes to his studio to talk to him and I guess prepare for the case. 

*Side note, and I will do another review at some point, but Donald Glover is freaking BUFF in this new show he is in ‘Mr. and Mrs. Smith’!!  Like DUDE been in the gym!!!*

She is at the studio, it always seems to be dark and he is trying to seduce her.  There is another man, Ronreaco, who is the private eye who is trying to find info on the slain lover but can’t seem to find anything.  I actually thought the 2 of them, his name was Jimmy, had a lil fling but they just have a good working relationship; it does seem odd though.  Ok back to the crazy white mom… She actively is trying to get her son another wife and invites a woman from his past to the birthday dinner and sits her next to the husband, Kal. It was just mad disrespectful the way the mother treated Mea, saying he shouldn’t have married her and just so much hate for her, and Kal of course never checks his mom because she is dying from cancer.  I mean they slap a scarf on her head and I know this is a movie, but it she is the healthiest cancer patient I’ve ever seen.  Mea keeps ‘working’ on the case and Zyair keeps trying to seduce her.  Ok there were 2 sex scenes; the one with the husband seemed very forced and I guess he got it, but Mea, not so much; and then there was the paint scene naturally with Zyair because there is gonna be infidelity and… I gotta go back. Jimmy has spied on Kal in the past and is continuing to watch him.  Jimmy saw that Kal was in a hotel with some girl and told Mea about it and Mea who had just left Zyair who was about to have some big sex with the neighbor and then Mea comes in and not real sure what happened to the neighbor, but there was paint pouring on the bodies and no showering of the already used peen, and booties were shaking and yeah, the PAINT SEX SCENE!!!  The next day Kal and the brother and his wife took the crazy white mom to a hotel and that is where Jimmy saw them.  Random thought, if you are having issues in your marriage the 1^st thing you think to do when your husband is cheating is to also cheat?!?! I mean I GUESS, but not really.  And then she feels bad and the husband is mad naturally.  At some point Mea talks to the gallery owner who described the exact seduction used on her the Zyair must use on all the ladies.  He’s a freak, he gets AROUND!! Kal’s not talking to Mea and then Mea goes to the Dominican Republic to clear her head.  She runs into a woman who looks EXACTLY like the woman Zyair supposedly killed and then the woman runs away and doesn’t know English alla sudden.  Mea calls the brother-in-law, his name is Ray (thank you IMDB!) and tells him Zyair is innocent and to free Zyair.  And this is when the unhinged part begins.  If I am in the DR chilling, I’m not about to come home to talk to the family that already pretty much hates me.  We can talk on the phone, hell we can even face time.  She lost the woman and her PI, Jimmy was trying to find her again. Ray said he had an investigator on a plane and she should come home.  No!! Anyway she goes home and goes to the house. At the house is the crazy white mom, Mississippi and Ray, who is acting real suspicious and Kal is not there.  Ray gave Mea a drink and she side eyes it as she should.  Then ALL hell broke loose.  Turns out the mother never had cancer, they cooked up this whole plan because Ray was going to run for mayor and he would have gotten sympathy votes for having a sick mom.  They then were trying to kill Mea.  Somehow Mississippi died.  Ray got poked in the eye with a key and the mother died too.  Mea runs out to the road, waves down Kal, who is then taking her back to the house.  Now this fool supposedly calls 911, hangs up and then 911 calls back.  Wait… where they do that at??!?!?  He answered the phone “Yes 911?” (LOL I rewound that one cause I was like WAIT does 911 call people back?!?!) It was his brother saying Mea knows the whole plan and bring her back to the house.  Mea turned on the Bluetooth and hears the last part of the conversation.  She unbelts his seatbelt and there was an oncoming 18 wheeler, yadda yadda yadda, Kal dies.  Cut to later that morning, Ray is being arrested and Zyair is vindicated and Mea is on the side of the building I guess in disguise as Zyair thanks her.  So now she ain’t got no husband nor lover?!?!  Oh Tyler!!  I just… where do you come up with this.  I forgot the twist that Mississippi slept with Zyair first and the whole thing was a set-up to get him in jail.  But then Mea ALSO slept with him, because as stated earlier, he’s a FREAK!!  My final analysis, I was entertained!! It has like maybe 4 stars on the IMDB but hey, it was a good time for me.  I though Kelly Rowland did a great job! Is she gonna win an Oscar off this? no… Nor an NAACP Image award, but I enjoyed it.  There were just to many times where better decisions could be made.  That’s life!

Flowers, just because it's Monday

 I wanted to celebrate myself on this day because a year ago on 6/15/22 I had my last menstrual cycle, my period, Aunt Flo’s last hurrah!! And… Oh hole up I also meant to do a disclaimer!

**WARNING** This blog post is about lady parts and lady things.  If you are not a lady KEEP READING because it might have already affected the lady in your life or its coming!  And if you are a lady also KEEP READING because all of our experiences are valid and similar in some why OR maybe not at all.  And we don’t talk enough about the good the bad and the ugly of this time in our lives.  We have to mentally prepare we are physically changing and it can be a whole damn lot. So here is my story…

Since about 43 my cycle decided to stop being regular.  I would miss one here and there and then be real heavy and it was the pits.  Then I noticed it getting lighter and I was ALL for that.  I mentioned to my doctors because one thing about me is I’m gonna see my doctors and make sure everything is working the way it’s supposed to work.  My primary care sort of dismissed the notion that I could or should be in perimenopause so early and my gyn, who was a midwife also was like well you won’t know for sure until it completely stops. Nothing was out of the ordinary so I kept on doing what I was doing.  And then the hot flashes.  A hot flash is never quite properly described.  Some women say it’s an internal heat that swells within.  You get hot, you may sweat; it may last for a few minutes to a whole lot longer.  And even though that is the actual feeling is just, not really that.  For a while when I started getting the flashes around 45, I would stop, ask people around me if they were also hot and just tell myself this surely isn’t what I think it is!?!  Right?? Nah, cause my mom would sweat profusely!!  That was a HOT FLASH to me.  That is what I grew up thinking, they were massive events that required dress shields to avoid the pit stains, and rolling the window down in the winter to get a little air, me running around the church getting my mother paper towel because she was drenched within minutes and her being mad at me because I didn’t move fast enough.  A HOT FLASH was a terrible time!!  It was not something I wanted nor looked forward to.   My mother ended up having a full hysterectomy because she just had a whole lot of things going on with her lady parts. And I was so very happy because that meant no more HOT FLASHES!!  I remember one of her teacher friends also had hot flashes, but hers were like nothing.  She just announced she was having a flash and a few seconds later it passed.  I was confused because NO MA’AM that was not the HOT FLASH I was used to so you must be a fibbing ass fibber because I KNOW what a HOT FLASH is! Fast forward to my sister going through it. She was again nothing like my mother with the sweat, but shirts came off more often than I care to mention and she would sit directly under a fan.  So while she didn’t have a HOT FLASH, she did have hot flashes! And then went back to being cold all the time. This was all I thought perimenopause was going to be. But, it’s that and more.  First of all the mental preparation of my body being done with being able to have a baby when I never had a baby weighed heavy on me.  It’s such a rude and personal question to ask any woman why she either doesn’t have or never had kids.  It could be so many reasons from not wanting kids to not being able to conceive.  And I am not less than a woman because it never happened for me.  I never went out of my way to have a kid and maybe the men I dealt with in the past were bad swimmers!! I mean because it’s not always us… I digress LOL So, yeah that part of my life is over.  It is final.  And I have so many more years left to live, but carrying a baby is not ever going to be part of my life and I’m ok with that.  Secondly, the hormonal shift.  My hormones can sometimes be all over the place!!  I’m mad then happy, then aggravated and this could all be in the span of an hour. And MY hot flashes.  So as previously mentioned, I thought I was preparing for HOT FLASHES and instead I got ho flas… So this caused me great vexation because for about 3 years I went around doubting that I was in fact having hot flashes AND that I was pre-menopausal.  And then I got HOT flashes!  And I knew what was going on and that my body was doing what it do!  I got to the point of DON’T TOUCH ME!!  I AM HOT!!  Then to WHY IS IT SO DAMN HOT!!! Then I had the night sweats and the one leg out, fan on water by my bedside because this is some real bullshit!!  I even had nerve to tell my manager (more than once) to turn off his heat if we are having the meeting in his office cause I’M HOT!!! And I work with men, any mention of lady troubles and they fall right in line because they all have mothers, wives, and/or daughters. Somewhere along the way I started following Oh Hello Perry and Black Girls Guide to Menopause on Instagram. These site gave some good information, because sometimes I really did think I was crazy.  The Black girls guide is extremely useful because we do experience menopause differently. I have been talking to women who have gotten the pellet under their skin to help with the flashes.  I wanted the pellet which was some form of estrogen, but instead I went the natural route.  I tried black cohosh, menopause support which had a lot of different things in it and finally bee pollen. NONE of those things did anything.  I just kept taking them trying to feel the no hot flashes and wondering why it was taking so long, but nothing.  Also, my primary care prescribes something but it interfered with my current meds and what I was not willing to do is shift what I was already taking for hot flash relief. I took it for maybe a week.  I was pretty miserable for almost 2 years.  Just recently I changed gyn doctors and she prescribed me progesterone which did nothing. I don’t understand why it takes several weeks/months for these meds to work.  I called my new doctor and she prescribed an estrogen patch a very low dose patch.  It started working within 2 weeks!! And life was good UNTIL… The fucking side effects!  The first night I felt woozy.  Like a little dizzy and not myself.  I slept really hard that night but things leveled out after a few days. I always felt a little sleepy.  The next thing is a big overshare, but hey, it is what it is.  My nipples were MAJORLY sensitive I mean to the point of I couldn’t even touch myself.  And not in a sexual way, I mean, when my bra was off as I often like for it to be, whatever shirt or gown would rub against them, it was painful. And in a sexual way the ta tas were off limits!!  Like sir you can’t put those there and NO I’m not gonna do THAT!! I’m a stomach sleeper and I could barely lay on my stomach and no shifting of the girls worked or helped.  For many nights I tossed and turned because of the sensitivity.  Then I had a shooting pain in my left breast and 2 breakthrough cycles.  I took the patch off and stopped taking the progesterone.  So we’ll see… I ‘m not sure when or if the flashes will come back but that along with general sluggishness was not a good thing. 

Even though I sorta had a cycle, I’m still celebrating the end of an era! Being a woman is not always easy. Any slight sign of emotion and we are swiftly told to calm down when we weren’t fucking riled up in the first place.   I have to measure out my words on a constant bases because in addition to being an emotional woman, I don’t want to also be the angry Black chick.  My body has gone through some changes.  I have gained weight, lost weight, I have rolls and cellulite a couple chins (and hair on the 1^st one), skin discoloration, eczema, dry skin, brittle nails, my hair not quite as thick in some spots, I’m gassy some days and bloated on others, my eyes are bad but I don’t have glaucoma or cataract like my grandmothers (nothing is ripe), but I do need my progressives to see, and there is probably so much more.  I would change a few things (I was about to lie and say I wouldn’t change a thing… I mean I ain’t going to go get no BBL (cause women really be out here getting BBL’s like REGULAR women)) but I am comfortable in my skin! It was a journey to get here! I didn’t always love the skin I was in.  I try to not do negative self talk and when I do, I get myself together!

This is the blog today!

 We have this IM feature at work on the Google and I sent my counterpart, who is 25, a meme with Lowered Expectation, the skit from MadTV.  He had no clue what that was and then as I’m explaining that and dating ads in the paper.  I sent him a link to a YouTube from the show and just went down a rabbit hole of those terrible ads and how funny it all was.  But we were really out here dating from 3-5 lines of someone’s trying to be themselves, and if you think about, how different is it from Tinder, or Match or whatever the hell new app is out there now?  I told him I don’t remember placing ads, but I for sure remember answering a few in my day… Whew and the 2 dates… no wait 3 (or was it more?!?!) that I went on LMAO.  The guy who looked like Scotty Pippen and not in a good way (is there any good way to look like Scotty Pippen?!?! I mean I am looking at his light skinded kids now (who are adults) and they are alright looking I guess…) who bought 1 ticket to whatever movie NOT 2 cause we were clearly going dutch.  I can’t even remember the movie I was so pissed LOL.  LIKE DUDE!!!  This is a date.  And it was 1 date because NO sir, I wanted to be a little bit wooed.  Then the other guy who looked like Mike Tyson who’s aftershave was nauseating, OH and he was short which wasn’t even a deal breaker, but he was very uncute, he did buy both tickets so that was something!  Still can’t remember the movie but it was at Security Theatre BEFORE the renovation, so it was mad dirty and yucky!!  Then the last guy I remember, wait did we go to a movie?  I can’t remember, but what I do remember is he had one of the 1^st Rav4’s.  He was very chocolate and I think he was cute, and I feel like I was liking him, but he was NOT feeling ya girl!  So much so, when I saw him in line at the polls at the elementary school near my apartment for whatever vote we were voting for, he literally turned and acted like he didn’t recognize me!!!  At that point it had been several months (hell it coulda been years for all I remember), but I was like Is this what we really doing?!?!  OK!!  My God I got some stories LMAO!!!! Those are the 3 I remember from the dating ads. 

And then that time I literally ran into Mike Tyson at the All-Star weekend when they had it in DC.  My outfit was a neon green TURTLEneck and some black pants/jeans.  Like there was nothing sexy about it.  I can’t remember what my girlfriend had on, but I’m sure she was in a short skirt/dress of some sort!!  I aint gon say no names but we had BIG FUN in Baltimore and DC alike LOL OH to be 20 something!!

I think that this is the blog!

I know those yams are meant for me!!

 A friend on the Facebook had a meme that said ‘Being an adult makes you realize just how quickly you can spend $200, but also how to live off $17 for the week…’ I laughed as I do at things that are factual YET relevant and then I looked at my bank account.  I spend way too much on unnecessary things.  I can justify pretty much all of it, but it really needs to change.   I am on a self-imposed Spending Fast which mainly means no shopping on QVC, HSN, frivolously at the Dollar Tree (but it’s just 5 quarters which add up!!), Amazon and other online websites buying shit I don’t need.  Also, reducing my eating out which some weeks and months are worse than others.  I have food at home that I am gonna eat!!

 

I watched some pretty bad movies last weekend and when I posted on the Facebook that these movies were in fact BAD, a lot of people came to their defense. So just cause you liked it I have to?!? Is that how this works? Nope cause I really didn’t like it and I said what I said. But I can break it down

**SPOILERS**

The Drop

The premise is a bunch of couples going to their friend’s wedding and one of the friends drops the baby. Dropping a baby in and of itself is not funny, but the movie was full of comedians like Jermaine Fowler (the dude who was in Coming to America 2); Robin Thede (Black Lady Sketch Show) actually her part were about the only funny parts; Aparna Nancherla who plays in stuff… she has a dry witty deadpan comedy, but she’s funny.  The baby is dropped, they go to the house/hotel where the wedding is going to be and everyone is analyzing their life and life choices.  I only laughed a little.  And then I couldn’t figure out how they were friends.  Were they college friends?  Did they grow up together?  Did they work together?  I couldn’t figure it out and then it was over!!

You People

This movie I have gotten the most flack for saying I didn’t like it.  It is staring Eddie Murphy, Julia Louis Dreyfus, Jonah Hill and Lauren London AND ALSO Nia Long and David Duchovny… and Rhea Pearlman.  Basically an interracial comedy (I guess); Jonah is Jewish and Lauren is Muslim and the 2 have to overcome their families and yadda yadda yadda, then end up married at the end.  I initially had a hard time with the actual couple, not the black and white of it, but the Jonah and Lauren of it.  Like in what world are they ever together? Lauren London is freaking gorgeous and Jonah… I mean, he’s an acquired taste (I guess).  I kept trying to look at him and see him as a sexual being and I just could not.  He did nothing for me! Just NOTHING!!!  I think there were only a few scenes that they actually kissed and the chemistry was forced at best.  Maybe if they had an actual sex scene? That might have persuaded me.  And then I remembered Lauren used to be with Lil Wayne (I mean I know that is real life and this is a movie, don’t @ me!!) and in all honesty, you like/love who you like/love, so that part I relented on.  And then we have Eddie Murphy who is pure comedy, but not so much in this movie.  He was a jerk!  And Julia was ditsy but in her way was trying to get to know her daughter in-law to be.  And Nia Long and David Duchovny barely spoke and then they threw Mike Epps in who I think was the brother.  They also threw La La Anthony and Rhea Pearlman.  It was just a disjointed, forced, mess of a movie.  But hey… It’s #1 on the Netflix so go ahead and watch.

Black Adam

The Rock is Shazam set in a random Middle East country.  It’s DC so don’t expect much.  I wanted to like The Rock, Aldis Hodge, Quintessa (cause how can you not want to root for someone with that name), Pierce Brosnan and a few other folks.  And with about 30 minutes to go, they introduced the big bad and I was like HOLE UP this movie is almost over!  WTH?!?!?  Even as I type I have done a whole lot of loud sighing.  The CGI was bad, the dialogue was bad...  I mean, it was just bad. Even The Rock in all the skin tight costume didn’t do it for me.   He was supposed to be the anti-hero but then… Listen, I did not like it.  And as one of my friends on the Facebook said ‘It’s a good thing I’m not a movie critic!’  In general I am just tired of Hollywood telling me I should watch and like this movie (any movie) that they spent all these millions on, and the independent films, low budget films, cult classic films that are actually good don’t get the promotion. 

Am I the onliest one who has this song on repeat in my head rent free for no good reason?!?!? Can I get to the yams?? Sweet YAMS... show me the way, cause I got bills to pay!!!!  Yams is life I guess!!!

Take the time that you need, fill the space in between...

 It is the 29th of December we are fast approaching the end of the year of our Lord two thousand twenty-two.  It is my big cousin/sister/soror's birthday, and I need to call her soon, but I'm feeling very ranty right now.  MORE than usual so wanna hear what has my bonnet in a bunch?!!?  

1.  I'm not sure why this vexes me so, but the Behr (Home Depot) paint color of the year for 2023 is beige.  I don't know why it's beige, out of all the colors on the color wheel they decided to make it BEIGE.  So then I was like well what is Glidden's color of the year?  Theirs is Vining Ivy which is a pretty blue green shade.  BUT THEN I go to see what Valspar's (Lowe's) color is and it is FREAKING BEIGE!!!!  Now of course the color name is not beige, but Ivory Brown, just like Behr's is Blank Canvas.  I was on IG last night and a guy who I don't know nor am I invested in his life was doing a room make-over and painted his walls white or maybe beige... it looked like the same shade it already was and I was like WHY sir who I don't know?!?!  WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT??? which leads into 2

2. Who decided that having multiple parts to a story was the new thing to do?  If you haven't wrapped that shit up in 30 seconds, then WHY?!?  Cause now I have to go to your page, find where you left off alerting IG that I like this type of content so inevitably they give me more, click on several reels until I get to the part 2 and then watch only for there to be a part 3!!  Like ma'am sir, NOOOOO!!! To be honest there are a few that I have been pleasantly surprised, well relating to home improvement.  And then the AITA (am I the asshole) threads always prompt me to watch more because usually most of the people are not in fact the asshole, but they need validation that they are not.  The stories are crazy, like the one where the parent took the mini iPad away from their 6 and 7 year olds several months ago for good reason and wanted to regift it back to them for Christmas.  That is genius if you ask me! Which you didn't...

3. Can we talk about these damn hot flashes?  I thought I was prepared but I was NOT!!  AM NOT!! Currently have the heat on my ankles, but I promise in about 5 minutes I will turn my fan on.  I just started taking black cohosh, but WHY does it say it may take 4 weeks to work?  Like WHY FOR!?!?!?  That literally makes no damn sense.  It just don't!! And misery loves company because one of my girlfriends has flashes now too and I be like I FEEL YOU GURL!!!  My little cousin who just entered her 40's don't quite understand, but she gon learn!!! And... FAN ON!!! I actually can deal with the during the day flashes, it's the wake up at 2:30 am and kick all the covers off, turn the fan on and just lay still until it passes, but then I'm just UP.  Start scrolling through social media, then Paisley thinks this is an invitation for her to hop her loud breathing ass onto the bed and want to be pet and cuddled, NO BITCH, I'M HOT!!! Leave me alone!!!! Now she has an attitude, I have to pee and now my knees are cold so I put the cover just over my knees because I am still sweating and JESUS when will this be over??  And if someone touches my thermostat one mo gin!!???!!!! Oh they have a death wish for sure... on to 4

4. I have new roommates.  Well, 1 new roommate one and her son.  The son is the one who took it upon himself to turn MY thermostat to 70.  Now some of you might say well 70 isn't so bad!  And you would be wrong.  Every house is different.  Mine tends to hold heat and I keep it at a crisp 64.  Don't at me... that's what I am comfortable with.  So this dude walks around with a tank top and shorts.  Like sir YOU HAVE TO PUT ON MORE CLOTHES!!!!  You just have to!!!  I keep a nice basket of blankets, some heavy, some light, and I have a portable heater you can use.  But don't touch the thermostat!!!   I posted the other day that the roommate I had a few years back, her daughter has moved in with me.  And for those that don't know, it's my sister and my nephew LOL (heat back on... knees are chilly).  To say this has been a challenge would be an understatement, but we are working through it, and it is temporary.  I'm just a live by herself kinda chick so it has been an adjustment for me and I know I nitpick, so the obvious stuff to me, is not obvious to everyone involved.  I have to let the small stuff go, burn some sage and keep it moving!

5. That's it!

Have a wonderful New Year!! 

Stay warm and safe!!! 

Tell the ones you love that they are loved!!!!

 

Winter done came!

 I am really not so good at the blogging thing anymore.  I guess I have other outlets and maybe.  I still have very random ass thoughts though, I'm not sure that will ever change.

**Spoilers... but I mean come on the show has been over for 2 years)** In one of my blogs a few years ago I joked that maybe one day I would watch Game of Thrones and get all the jokes, and memes and saying that everyone else did.  And I DID IT!!!  I finally FREAKING DID IT!!!  I watched Game of Thrones.  I'm not sure WHY I wasn't a hopper oner, but the greatness of that show is not oversold.  It really is an amazing series.  And per my usual I have the questions... So what happened to the Children of the Forest?  Are they all dead after the Hodor incident?  And time is a loop because Hodor got 'touched' as a child from something that happened in the future. Staying on the Children... what were the humans doing that was so bad that they needed to create basically a monster to stop the humans only to ban with the humans to stop the Wight (or white I've seen it both ways) walkers?  We never got a good back story on that!  Who was the man they stuck the Dragonstone into to become the Night King? How much did the dude playing the Night King get, cause he never spoke a word.  I really thought they were going to raise the dead from the water but that never happened.  And did the babies grow up to be adult Wight walkers when they got turned from Caster's male baby children.  And that whole thing was gross... they were his wives, daughters, granddaughters and they were all related to each other.  I mean Caster took incest to a BIG nother level.  Moving on... Are there more dragons?!?  I feel like there should have been more eggs/stones somewhere maybe that is explained in the prequel? I had high hopes for Brienne of Tarth and Tormund... but alas she did the dead with Jamie, and low key when she was writing in the book, I thought it was going to be about her being pregnant!  Did Arya really want to be No One?  Or did she know she would get good training there so she could kill all the people on her list? So all or at least most of the people in the East Essoso were brown?!?  I mean the folks in Dorne were too, but they were part of Westeros.  Greyworm did not have a peen, and I have seen an interview with Jacob Anderson the man who played him, who incidentally is in a new series that I want to watch and reimagining of Interview with a Vampire, and he says he did, but NAH!!!  All the gore and naked bodies, well women's naked bodies OH and that one-time Hodor gave us full frontal, and they couldn't show us what the unsullied were working with?!?!  LIKE come on!!  No one had the imagination enough to show us their eunuched private parts?!?!  I actually was on the edge of my couch thinking they were about to show it but then nothing!!  They said it was very graphic in the novel and that was a huge let down that they didn't show that!  I don't think men understand how deeply a woman can love because Missadei LOVED Greyworm, no peen and all.  And she didn't need that to complete making love to and with him.  Oh I'm sure they did some thangs... would have liked to see that mainly cause I like a well crafted love scene and we had seen sooo very much up to that point, I don't want to use my imagination. LET ME SEE!!!!  My favorite characters in no particular order were Tormund (he was comic relief most of the time and he kept NOT dying!!), Samwell (and let's not forget his very sweet moment when he had the secks for the first time), Gendry (who I thought at some point was going to be king or something, I don't know... I KNOW he was a bastard!), Lady Olenna (who was a complete badass up until her death), Little Lady Lyanna (who ALSO was a complete badass up until her death... she was 10!!! and spoke the best good and common sense!!), I mean truth be told all of the women were total badasses with Khaleesi leading the charge! To say I enjoyed this series that I binged for the last few months would be an understatement.  I know I have more questions!  I know I will be rewatching at some point!  And eventually The house of Dragons.  

I just started watching Succession and this is a terrible family, well no specifically a terrible father who has terrible kids.  I'm only on season 2 but I can't look away!!!  Like how you marry a dude and then be like, well you know I might not be able to be monogamous!?! You ok with that??? WHO DOES THAT?!?!  And it is supposed to be funny right, cause I've been laughing the whole time!

In a little over 2 months, I will be 49.  Like WHEN did that happen that I became almost 50?!?!?  HOW SWAY???  I have been trying to think of what I'm going to do, and I think a solo trip is in order.  Still not sure where. I also know I will be having a 49 1/2 birthday bash because it was a good time when I did it at 39 1/2.  Not sure if it will be at my house, or at a park or at a hotel... maybe all 3?!?! Maybe a whole weekend of events... EWWW now that would be fun!!  I'm still thinking, but if you are anywhere near downtown Woodlawn next July 15th. you are invited!!

 

There's something on my back that I need to get off babY...

 The year of our Lord and Savior 2022 and I have not blogged one single word.  I don't have a reason!  My faithful 4 have probably found other blogs to read, or maybe they are on the TikTok... I don't know.  But I am feeling the need and mostly I do this for me so if you read and enjoy, GREAT, if not, dats cool!!

I'm sitting here listening to a vlog on the YouTubes and they are eating Peruvian food, so you know now want Peruvian Food, but the way I'm doing things right now is I am trying to eat the food that is in my house and/or food I purchase to cook myself.  I am trying not to buy food out ALTHOUGH I did yesterday and that McDonald's hash brown and sausage McMuffin was EVERYTHING!  It was crisp and fresh and so good!  And on this past Saturday even though it was not raining at my house, the heavens opened up the second I got to Baltimore City and attempted to run across the street to Sugar Mama's. BTW if yo have not done yourself the favor of stopping by this spot and live in the Baltimore metro area I really need to know why you are living your life that way? I got the jerk chicken on coco bread with fries, and 3 wings on the side and a triple mix. It was worth every single calorie! What I will say that it wasn't even my favorite thing to get there because my usual is a French toast sandwich.  I have digressed... So my goal is to cook more and eat more green veggies and fruits and berries and I am on my way to the Aldis to get food to cook.  And even as I type this I have yet another goal to try new restaurants in the area.  I follow 3 or 4 food bloggers on the Instagram and everything the have, I want.  The way my bank account is set up though tells me that I can't live my life like that.  Also, the 40 pounds that I had lost during all of the Covid (why is there still squiggly lines under covid?!?!) quarantining, well not all but a few of the pounds, have found their way back and I need to get them off and going out frequently is not the right answer.  I attended a webinar at work today and outside of the basic information I already knew, something that I didn't is that berried are a better fruit choice than apples.  You know the saying an apple a day? And I do like strawberries, and blueberries so they are on the list when I hit the store.

If I'm being honest I am pretty bored today.  I probably could be doing a lot of other things, but I don't feel like it.  All the reports I need to do are done.  Paperwork is where it needs to be.  So I'm just going to enjoy this small amount of down time this afternoon.

Also, still in the vein of honesty, I am bummed I don't have a trip that I have planned.  I love the idea of something to look forward to and I have nothing to look forward to right now.  At one point there was supposed to be an Atlantic City getaway and then another point there was supposed to be a Vegas getaway neither of which panned out.  I looked online at some of the various travel groups and no one has anything with availability until next year and the one that did have availability skewed toward a 20 something crowd.  I'm not quite the AARP crowd even though I am a card carrying member EVEN though I am under 50 (and that's a whole nuther thing on my mind cause 50 is way closer than I like to think about some days), but I wanted something that wasn't what I saw.  Then I am completely in my head, because I would like a little weekend SOMETHING, but where?! Do I drive? Do I hop on a plane?  Do I do a staycation? But then where do I drive; where do I fly? How many days?  Do I feel like being bothered with family or friends?  If it's solo then I need to feel safe.  And again... bank account is a consideration as well. So just too many questions and I am way too indecisive to answer any of the above.

And then these fucking men I work with/for.  MAKE A DECISION!!  Right or wrong then that will be that.  Which is funny because I just said I was indecisive, but business is business and your lack of decision making affect ME!! Also, they get paid tons more than me to make decisions.  I am so low on the totem pole and  I am interested in making my life easier, so if you want me to do whatever thing I need to do to make your life easy, you best to believe I am going to do the thing that make MY life easy.  And that's all I got to say about that!!

Some good TV I've been watching... P-Valley **no spoilers** but BAYBEEE the secks scenes have made me holler!!  And every one is having the secks!!!  Same secks!  Opposite secks!! Tittays OUT!!! Punani OUT!!!! Peen... OUT!!!!! wait.. is there peen out in this show or ws that another show?  It is a bit much but I'm here for it!! And I will say, whatever Diamond did to Mercedes to get the weight off her, I  NEED!!!

I just started re-watching New Girl and it still holds up.  It is a funny ass show.  I watched Dopesick and it is so fucked up that big pharma specifically that family in that show which is a real family are all about money,  I mean trying to heal people is NOT the main goal every.  I just finished the 2nd season of Russian Doll and that show was good!  I still have to start Stranger Things, I just haven't been in the mood.  And Barry... season 2 ep 5 was THEE most hilarious.  Now this is a dark comedy, but I literally laughed out loud the entire episode.  Like I shouldn't be laughing at people trying to kill other people, BUT I DID!!  Umbrella Academy left me wanting MORE!!!  I still can't get into The Expanse, but I finally got to a point where I was like OH OK... I get it.  Kenobi, is epic Star Wars goodness.  I like sci fi clearly!!  Ms. Marvel is a cute lil show.  And I am majorly pissed Naomi got canceled.  I started the latest season of Queen Sugar and Ralph Angel is still fine... but his accent isn't as ridiculous.  I need for Aunt Vi to calm down!! I'm only a few episodes in.  also, Everything's Trash so far so good, the main chicks acting is not the best, but I can dig it!

OK... I am feeling a little lighter now!  I still have a lot of thoughts and this is just a small snippet of my randomness but it's nice to get it down and off my chest.