This week has just been hard! My sister had surgery and she came and stayed with me for a few nights and I reconfirmed that I am not built for the overnight shift. When I was taking care of my mom and it became clear that she was not going to sleep through the night on a regular basis, I got a night nurse. I actually liked that I could take care of my sister, that wasn't the bad part. The bad part is my body just could not get it together. AND THEN there was daylight savings time which is some fracken nackle. So I was just tired! I kept trying to not be tired and telling myself I wasn't tired, but my ass was TIRED!! My goal is to work out at 5 times a week, which usually I make it 3 times, but last week, I worked out once. I felt good after, but that was all I could muster for the week. It's ok to not be ok! I felt bad for feeling bad. How crazy is that? Then it's also been gloomy and cold. Friday was the first day I felt like myself. My body is slowly but surely getting back to the normal that I am used to.
Spring has sprung! I didn't even realize the first day of spring had made it's arrival. I shoulda known. One clue were the smallish flower that were starting to pop up in my backyard. I bought this random little basket of bulbs at Aldi's last fall and got them in the ground. My main fear was that one of the critters (rabbit, squirrel or maybe even that dame ground hog (even though my brother told me it was most likely a family, I am still holding on to it just being 1 LOL)) were going to dig them up and eat the. The squirrels are real good for that. But, surprisingly they didn't! It would have been great if I had labeled them, but unfortunately, that is not my strong suit. There are crocus and maybe some type of lily and maybe a tulip? It will be a surprise whenever they bloom. It truly are the little things! Also, my plants in the front are also making their arrival.
The concept that things revolve around you is so ingrained in all of us that sometimes I think we forget that there are bigger things going on than what we can see or comprehend. IT'S BIGGER THAN YOU!
I washed my car today because the birds have been completely disrespectful to my car! AND I felt that I needed to do it myself because an instant car wash or even hand car wash, they would miss a spot, and that would piss me off. What I don't need is to pay for a service that I know is not going to be good. You go to these places, they don't do a great job, and then you still (well maybe it's just me) feel compelled to tip. Nope! Not today! I had some energy today so I did it myself. I've poked my head out to look out at my car to see if the birds have 'tagged' my car, and so far so good. What I will need to do is buy another hose. I've had that one for several years; the spray nozzle is rusted onto the hose AND there are a few holes. If I wasn't paying attention, I would have given my creepy neighbor, because I know his weird ass was watching, a nice little wet t-shirt show! I'm looking on the Amazon now to see about a new hose which is going to take me down a rabbit hole of shopping and reading reviews and trying to figure out the durability and... UGH... just alla that!! I might could tape up the holes??! Maybe I won't be that trifling LOL! Or maybe I will?!??
Today is Sunday and the sun has been absolutely amazing!! I just sat outside and soaked up the setting sun. I have been in such a mode of gratefulness! I am thankful for all of the things big, small, and in between! And that's all I have to say about that!!!
