I just posted a blog I wrote last week, but I have more stuff in me!
I had been reading some old posts from this date 10/21. My goal in 2013 was to post more blogs, 3 a week to be precise. WE all know how that one worked out LOL. In 2015 I rehashed my experience with all the critters squirrels and mice that seemed to want to live in the house with me, Paisley, and the roommate which would be a great title of a book!!! LOL
I had a really vivid dream last night or more like right before I woke up which is probably why I remembered it. So all of my family was around this island in this kitchen. The specific people I remember were my nieces and my brother but the house was full so I know there were others there. And then there was this little light skinded baby who I think was mine (?) then this light skin man with a red beard (he was black but he had red hair) who I think was also mine, but then I kept flashing forward and back so at one point I was pregnant and then the baby was there. It was weird and I have no idea what it means and NO there no way I'm pregnant not no way!! SO yeah I have no idea what this means. My mother... err I mean roommate had a pretty vivid dream the other day. She was running down some steep steps to get to the blue Dodge car, she needed to get it in the garage. This issue with her dreams is that she usually thinks they are real. When I say to her well it was a dream sometimes she gets really belligerent and other days she can accept that yep it was a dream. This particular day she spent most of the day trying to convince the caregiver that she needed to get out of the bed and move the car into the garage. The caregiver indulged her for the most part and even as she left she was trying to comfort her by saying she would take care of the car. Now me being the daughter and also caregiver, I have to bring her to present day reality. Lady you have not driven a car in at least 7 years, your son has your car, the house with the garage is in Pittsburgh has been sold, my car is a blue car which she kept telling me NO IT WAS A DODGE... so yeah ALL OF THAT!!
I am a YouTube chick! I watch shows on it and then start following the people (content creators and actors) on the Instagram and Twitter. One station in particular (Black & Sexy TV) took their content to VHX and has a yearly subscription. Another Issa Rae just created a show on HBO called Insecure and the tagline is "She's trying hard AF!!" It has gotten rave reviews! But it took for FREAKING ever and I was able to watch the process. SO go RIGHT NOW to HBO and watch. I actually had to stop and think about black people in general being on the TV and this year has not been too bad. I mean it always could be better. Actually it seems network TV is more inclined to putting black men on than black women. This show celebrates black women who don't have it all but that's ok cause we all DON'T have it all, nor are we all sassy, and angry and loud and secure. We are not a monolith! And we like to see that there are other types of black women other than the sassy sidekick.
There was a man that said or rather typed something rather crude about how my mind could change based on the time of month. I actually let it go, I didn't even cuss him the fuck out even though it will happen sooner or later. Let me explain to ALL who read this, I am tired of having to explain myself as not being angry or mad when my opinion differs from yours. I'm tired feeling like I have to lower my voice to make you feel comfortable because GOD FORBID if I raise it I am clearly on my period and emotional and/or trying to take on wifely duties because I'm telling you what to do. Trust me I don't want to be your wife! Nor am I trying to tell you what to do. I'm tired of having to put a smile on my face because again, I feel the need to pacify. I have had conversations with other black women where we say well we gotta be the ABC (angry black chick) today or try not being the ABC because no matter how 'nice' we are, folks will see us as angry and it is so exhausting. I give up! I'm done trying to make you feel ok! ALSO I am going to say what I want when I want which is what I usually do, but there are a few folks who I still tend to censor myself but NO MAS!! (which is Spanish for no more LOL)
I have a cousin (our grandmothers were sisters) who I never met but who I was friends with on Facebook and Pinterest. She passed away a few weeks ago. It is very sad because she has a ton of 1st cousins and I think they are in the same boat as me as never having met her. Her birthday is today and it is popping up on Facebook and it is just sad. She has young kids and no one seems to be saying anything or at least the family that I am close with don't seem to know anything.
Someone needs to give me their Netflix code so I can watch Luke Cage. There is NO shame in my game!!!
This man has decided to hack up all of his lung and I must now go!!
And now I want chicken...
Friday, October 21, 2016
10.21.16
Sometimes I work really hard at doing nothing! It occurred to me that I do care what some people think of me. NOT ALL people but some, and not even all the time, and that drives me to look busy and do stuff even when alls I want to do is stay in bed and watch TV.
I was really close to going inside of the bank and cussing the teller out who gave me a crazy look. Ok let me back up a bit.. About a year ago (maybe more maybe less) one of my banks (cause we all know I'm balling and have so much money and so many account (well I do have more accounts than I care to share, the amount of money is not so much)) Susquehanna got bought out by BB&T. I opened my account at Susquehanna when the now defunct Provident bank decided it was k to keep nickel and diming me for dumb shit. So I was a happy customer at the now defunct Susquehanna. I knew the change was coming and even my account # changed which I guess makes sense but I still can remember my old # and clearly I don't do well with change. I had a whole $50 and the bank person was like OH did you want to close your account? What I didn't know at the time is that my old account which everything was free was grandfathered in, so now BB&T is not making any money from my account. A few months passed and I deposited $200 into the account and the cashier told me that I shouldn't make any changes because I was getting free everything and that they didn't offer that with any new accounts coming on. Huh, really? Thank you sir for that info!! Recently I started selling jewelry and I decided to use this account as my 'business' account. I am not familiar with this bank. Today I go to the ATM and attempt to make a deposit. Well you need an envelope. EVERY other account I have you can just put the cash or the check right in without an envelope so then I just decide to do the drive thru. I still needed to fill out a deposit slip. The young lady give me a pen and a slip, it literally take me 2 seconds to fill out but then she start counting ALL of the money in the bank and does NOT check on me. So I tap on the window... nothing. I push the little call button twice... still nothing. SO I beep my horn. The other cashier turned around like I had wrecked her complete day. I say to the other little girl WHY IS SHE LOOKING AT ME CRAZY? You didn't even check on me!! It only took 2 seconds to fill out the slip. So then attitude girl I guess does the deposit and tells me that I should have just pushed the button. What I wanted to say was BITCH I DID!! What I said was...I did TWICE and neither one of you responded. Stuff like this can piss me off but i'm not gon let it mess up my good day!
I had just came from Duesenberg's and had the Marilyn Muenster which was brisket, caramelized onions and muenster cheese. LORD it was good!! I usually get breakfast food and specifically French toast when I go there but it was lunch time and everyone had sandwiches that looked awesome, so that's what I got. When I was finished this elderly fellow came and sat at the table next to me. He was flirting a bit and we both said how beautiful the day was. I threw on a big sweatshirt because I thought it was a little chillier. His wife finally came out and she commented too how nice it was and how they both wore jackets because they thought it was going to be cooler. I looked at both of them and they were not a bad looking couple. I would love to see their wedding picture because I'm convinced they were both very attractive in their day.
I'm sitting on a bench outside of the library. Mainly because it's a little too chilly inside and the sun keeps peeking through the clouds. It is a BEA-U-TI-FUL day. That's how my grandmother would say the word, emphasizing ALL of the syllables. Usually when I come to the library I have on my headphones but since I'm outside I'm doing a little people watching. So a man walks out with his long ponytail and I chuckle because he is bald in the center. I guess he is holding out as long as he possibly can. When I was inside one guy with headphones was watching what looked like The Voice or one of those kind of shows sand was getting his ever loving life!!! Then I looked up and one couple with about 5 teeth between them were researching something (I couldn't see y'all know I was looking LOL). Then another couple decided they needed to have a conversation even though he was WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY down on the 1st computer and she was WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY up near the printer. Folks don't adhere to the silence rule I remember it used to being back in the day. OH so the other day I went to the one near my house and this was a few hours before school let out so it wasn't buzzing with kids just yet. One guy at the back table had 2 computers set up and tablet but my dude was sleep. And I don't just mean his eyes were closed, this fool was snoring like he was at home in his own bed. I sat at the back tables because it was in front of the window but then as I was unpacking my stuff I was really trying to decide if my earbuds were going to drown out his snoring. One of the librarians finally came over to see if he was ok. He was apologetic but then I think went back to sleep. So then the security guard came over and said sir, maybe you need to walk around a bit and this is when the man got indignant. The whole thing was funny. He was just trying to do his lil job! About 10 minutes later the man started packing up all his stuff and then left.
My neighbors are all horrible, but I really think what's going on is I'm ready to move. Not necessarily because of them but more because this has been the longest I have lived anywhere (well on my own). I don't want neighbors. I want a long driveway that I don't have to share with anyone and not have to be bothered with who's car is in front of my house at any given time. I'm sitting across from 2 houses that have nice driveways. This neighborhood is really nice. And you can tell they are all owned as opposed to rented and people keep up their homes very nicely. That has been one of my issues is that even though the houses are owned in my neighborhood, the kids and grandkids that are living there, probably rent free, are renters. They just do dumb and inconsiderate shit. I'm not in any position to move any time soon and I need to get a few more things fixed in the house before I can think real hard about it.
A chick just passed me with a shirt on that she is tryna pass off as a dress. REALLY GIRL? That shit is too short and I know it's a shirt!! You know what I'm truly sick of, grown ass folks leaving their house with pajamas on. It is BEYOND ridiculous! Like really cookie monster bitch? REALLY? I saw this real grown man coming out of Taco Bell once with pajamas on and I looked at him and just shook my head. You look FOOLISH!!
and now more rants...
I'm in the supermarket yesterday and the girl parked her cart right in the center and proceeded to look for whatever thee hell. EXCUSE ME MA'AM if you and your too tight scrub wearing ass don't get the hell outta my way I'ma know something!! And then she moved but then didn't say excuse me or anything, she was just being rude. You had a hard day ok fine, just get outta my way!!
Then I see a cutie looking in the meat section, but when I circled back and he was gone :( #mylife. I was trying to have my 'black people meet' moment, but alas, it was not meant to be.
WHY do people have to constantly be on their phone and specifically their blue too (LOL). I'm at the deli and the dude is having a full on convo but it's his turn. I signal for to him to go, he gets some cheese. The lil deli dude had a question but he too busy on the phone so I said SIR!!! and he's like OH ok... And I then I start mumbling you need to PAY ATTENTION!!!
At certain stores I know who's line to get in and who's line NOT to get in. Yesterday's cashier was a NOT line. She moved so very slowly and for truly no good reason. It's not like I was in a rush but she didn't know that and there was no sense of urgency. At the Giant on 40 it's the older white lady with yellow hair who has to take a sip of whatever thee hell and talk to me while she is ringing up my items. I'm all for mindless banter, but let's get me out of this store as quickly as possible. Then there is the black lady at the Shopper's also on 40 who reminds me of an old lunch lady. She will get you OUT of the store real fast so I tend to look for her when I'm in that store. There is a lady with koolaid red hair at the Price Rite but they never have enough cashier on at any given time so even though she is a NOT line, sometimes she's the only one.
OH my Lord why did that man smell so good who just passed me... COME BACK SIR!!!
I was really close to going inside of the bank and cussing the teller out who gave me a crazy look. Ok let me back up a bit.. About a year ago (maybe more maybe less) one of my banks (cause we all know I'm balling and have so much money and so many account (well I do have more accounts than I care to share, the amount of money is not so much)) Susquehanna got bought out by BB&T. I opened my account at Susquehanna when the now defunct Provident bank decided it was k to keep nickel and diming me for dumb shit. So I was a happy customer at the now defunct Susquehanna. I knew the change was coming and even my account # changed which I guess makes sense but I still can remember my old # and clearly I don't do well with change. I had a whole $50 and the bank person was like OH did you want to close your account? What I didn't know at the time is that my old account which everything was free was grandfathered in, so now BB&T is not making any money from my account. A few months passed and I deposited $200 into the account and the cashier told me that I shouldn't make any changes because I was getting free everything and that they didn't offer that with any new accounts coming on. Huh, really? Thank you sir for that info!! Recently I started selling jewelry and I decided to use this account as my 'business' account. I am not familiar with this bank. Today I go to the ATM and attempt to make a deposit. Well you need an envelope. EVERY other account I have you can just put the cash or the check right in without an envelope so then I just decide to do the drive thru. I still needed to fill out a deposit slip. The young lady give me a pen and a slip, it literally take me 2 seconds to fill out but then she start counting ALL of the money in the bank and does NOT check on me. So I tap on the window... nothing. I push the little call button twice... still nothing. SO I beep my horn. The other cashier turned around like I had wrecked her complete day. I say to the other little girl WHY IS SHE LOOKING AT ME CRAZY? You didn't even check on me!! It only took 2 seconds to fill out the slip. So then attitude girl I guess does the deposit and tells me that I should have just pushed the button. What I wanted to say was BITCH I DID!! What I said was...I did TWICE and neither one of you responded. Stuff like this can piss me off but i'm not gon let it mess up my good day!
I had just came from Duesenberg's and had the Marilyn Muenster which was brisket, caramelized onions and muenster cheese. LORD it was good!! I usually get breakfast food and specifically French toast when I go there but it was lunch time and everyone had sandwiches that looked awesome, so that's what I got. When I was finished this elderly fellow came and sat at the table next to me. He was flirting a bit and we both said how beautiful the day was. I threw on a big sweatshirt because I thought it was a little chillier. His wife finally came out and she commented too how nice it was and how they both wore jackets because they thought it was going to be cooler. I looked at both of them and they were not a bad looking couple. I would love to see their wedding picture because I'm convinced they were both very attractive in their day.
I'm sitting on a bench outside of the library. Mainly because it's a little too chilly inside and the sun keeps peeking through the clouds. It is a BEA-U-TI-FUL day. That's how my grandmother would say the word, emphasizing ALL of the syllables. Usually when I come to the library I have on my headphones but since I'm outside I'm doing a little people watching. So a man walks out with his long ponytail and I chuckle because he is bald in the center. I guess he is holding out as long as he possibly can. When I was inside one guy with headphones was watching what looked like The Voice or one of those kind of shows sand was getting his ever loving life!!! Then I looked up and one couple with about 5 teeth between them were researching something (I couldn't see y'all know I was looking LOL). Then another couple decided they needed to have a conversation even though he was WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY down on the 1st computer and she was WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY up near the printer. Folks don't adhere to the silence rule I remember it used to being back in the day. OH so the other day I went to the one near my house and this was a few hours before school let out so it wasn't buzzing with kids just yet. One guy at the back table had 2 computers set up and tablet but my dude was sleep. And I don't just mean his eyes were closed, this fool was snoring like he was at home in his own bed. I sat at the back tables because it was in front of the window but then as I was unpacking my stuff I was really trying to decide if my earbuds were going to drown out his snoring. One of the librarians finally came over to see if he was ok. He was apologetic but then I think went back to sleep. So then the security guard came over and said sir, maybe you need to walk around a bit and this is when the man got indignant. The whole thing was funny. He was just trying to do his lil job! About 10 minutes later the man started packing up all his stuff and then left.
My neighbors are all horrible, but I really think what's going on is I'm ready to move. Not necessarily because of them but more because this has been the longest I have lived anywhere (well on my own). I don't want neighbors. I want a long driveway that I don't have to share with anyone and not have to be bothered with who's car is in front of my house at any given time. I'm sitting across from 2 houses that have nice driveways. This neighborhood is really nice. And you can tell they are all owned as opposed to rented and people keep up their homes very nicely. That has been one of my issues is that even though the houses are owned in my neighborhood, the kids and grandkids that are living there, probably rent free, are renters. They just do dumb and inconsiderate shit. I'm not in any position to move any time soon and I need to get a few more things fixed in the house before I can think real hard about it.
A chick just passed me with a shirt on that she is tryna pass off as a dress. REALLY GIRL? That shit is too short and I know it's a shirt!! You know what I'm truly sick of, grown ass folks leaving their house with pajamas on. It is BEYOND ridiculous! Like really cookie monster bitch? REALLY? I saw this real grown man coming out of Taco Bell once with pajamas on and I looked at him and just shook my head. You look FOOLISH!!
and now more rants...
I'm in the supermarket yesterday and the girl parked her cart right in the center and proceeded to look for whatever thee hell. EXCUSE ME MA'AM if you and your too tight scrub wearing ass don't get the hell outta my way I'ma know something!! And then she moved but then didn't say excuse me or anything, she was just being rude. You had a hard day ok fine, just get outta my way!!
Then I see a cutie looking in the meat section, but when I circled back and he was gone :( #mylife. I was trying to have my 'black people meet' moment, but alas, it was not meant to be.
WHY do people have to constantly be on their phone and specifically their blue too (LOL). I'm at the deli and the dude is having a full on convo but it's his turn. I signal for to him to go, he gets some cheese. The lil deli dude had a question but he too busy on the phone so I said SIR!!! and he's like OH ok... And I then I start mumbling you need to PAY ATTENTION!!!
At certain stores I know who's line to get in and who's line NOT to get in. Yesterday's cashier was a NOT line. She moved so very slowly and for truly no good reason. It's not like I was in a rush but she didn't know that and there was no sense of urgency. At the Giant on 40 it's the older white lady with yellow hair who has to take a sip of whatever thee hell and talk to me while she is ringing up my items. I'm all for mindless banter, but let's get me out of this store as quickly as possible. Then there is the black lady at the Shopper's also on 40 who reminds me of an old lunch lady. She will get you OUT of the store real fast so I tend to look for her when I'm in that store. There is a lady with koolaid red hair at the Price Rite but they never have enough cashier on at any given time so even though she is a NOT line, sometimes she's the only one.
OH my Lord why did that man smell so good who just passed me... COME BACK SIR!!!
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