I have just been in a complaining space. And I HATE that!! No one wants to hear that. Hell I hate thinking it!! So my blogs have been a little scarce lately. I wrote this long one out and then re-read it and it was just so dark and full of rage. And that’s not me so let me rebegin (hmm word does not like this word... but Words With Friends do so I’ma keep using it!!)!
Actually today is rather gloomy, but as soon as I put my obnoxious rain hat on I feel better. I got it the summer I was working back in DC and I saw it at the 9West store. It made me think of my grandmother! She always had a ridiculous hat for rainy days and supermarket days; ANY day! She was what folks call people a hoarder but we didn't really realize it then. She kept everything and it was a fight to have her throw away the smallest things. And true to form her hat collection (and shoe, and make-up, and perfume, and clothes) was big. I miss her so much! It’s funny the small things that remind me of my family that has passed away. On Friday I looked down at my outfit and had on about 5 shades of brown, my dads favorite color. Sunday as the critter ran behind the breakfront (or china cabinet) that belonged to my grandmother (oh wait this is my moms mom, the one with the hats is my dads mom) I thought of how this neighborhood group came around with these mouse flyers, well to kill them. I remember when she got the glue traps and I remember her killing a few with the shovel (Lawd she was so old school!!). And then there's my granddad who would let me clean a chitlin (yeah I know but that's what we ate) and then he would re-clean it and throw it in the pot. I didn’t mean to get so sentimental. I just feel so bad for folks who don’t have and/or get along with their families.
Sometimes I really have to question if I am asking to much from my service providers. Most days I really don’t think I am, but I do try to put myself in their shoes. Today after I was ready to write the manager and owner and whoever else would listen a letter about how bad their service was, the service guy who handles writing up my car comes and gets me from the waiting room and has the valet take me to work! I had just missed both shuttles and I already told a few people (the one service tech with bad skin and hair (she needed proactive & Wen LOL) pretty much ignored me) that I wasn’t happy and he tried (and succeeded) to make me less annoyed about the whole situation. I still might write a letter (no really I won’t) but it would be far less angry.
Last week I really wanted to put as my status that I just pooped and felt better about the whole day! But that would have been way to much information. Even right now it’s a helluva overshare!!
I am so lost in music right now. NeoSoul Café is where I go to listen to more mellow stuff. But some days can be really rap heavy. I mean of the neo soul variety, but you know some days I just don't feel like it.. So after I heard Jose James today I hopped on YouTube and been listening to just his stuff pretty much all day. His voice does not match what I thought he would sound like. First off he is this cutie patootie from the Midwest he looks like he might do a freestyle rap but then he opens his mouth and sings with this voice that just doesn’t fit. It’s not a bad thing in fact I would love to see him in concert which is why I gotta open my lounge for artists just like this! I keep telling myself it can’t be that hard. I just need a sponsor or 2! Maybe I can call Ray Ray up and see if he could throw $50k my way!! LOL I love how I think I can call Ray Lewis up on a whim. And his band.. back to Jose James... is freaking amazing! I need to get his cd’s. Most recently I got Elle Varner, Nas, Mary Mary, and DMX all on the same day. I know the cashier was looking at me crazy. But the goal was to get Elle Varner and Nas, but Mary Mary and DMX were like $5.99 so I just grabbed them. What’s funny is I already had the Mary Mary cd. As I listened I kept saying hmmm this sounds sorta familiar. And then sure enough when looked there it was. Now the explanation for DMX, I just like him. Always have! On the radio, versions of the song they are far less gritty. But actually listening to what he is saying is sometimes hilarious! He completely and totally disrespects his wife, I mean that’s not funny but some of the lyrics are. And then when I watch those shows like Rehab with Dr. Drew or that couple show he was on, I mean he went through some stuff! And then there is Nas who again the only explanation is, I LIKE HIM! I can pinpoint the exact time and place where I became a fan. It was the summer I worked as an intern at State Farm. I carpooled with Fatima (Lawd what was her last name) and our compromise was, her music on the days she drove, my music on the days I drove. Well she pumped Nas the entire summer!! I was more of a happy rap (you know like Kid N Play, Heavy D) kinda chick. But that summer Life’s a Bitch and then you die that’s why we puff fly cause you never know when a gonna GO was my mantra!! Mind you I didn’t puff then nor do I now, but the essence of it is life is short so you might as well have fun. I have pretty much every Nas cd to the shock of many. This new cd "Life is good" while good I’m still trying to figure out how much has he really grown up. I mean the N word is dropped without much care and the constant reference to ‘puffing’ is kinda... ok so I KNOW people smoke regularly but that shouldn’t be your whole life and it seems a little stuck to me. But his one lyric he said ‘like he must got naked pictures of God’ had me howling!! He is a true lyricist, he doesn’t just talk about bling and booty which is what we have an abundance of now! Onto Miss Varner! I first heard her on the radio but didn’t even know it was her. That first song ‘I only want to give it to you’ was so infectious I hated to admit I liked it. But every time it was on that was all I sang for the rest of the day. And then I heard the next song on NeoSoul Café ‘So fly’. The lyric that got me ‘ I got a beautiful soul but only 4 people know... they knew me since I was 10 beauty did not matter then!!’ I was hooked. What I didn’t realize it that she was so young (20 something) and she wrote all her songs! So it is staying in constant rotation in the hooptie!
The Wedding of the year was a few weekends ago!! I’m not sure why I thought I wasn’t going to have a good time but I had a freaking blast!! Open Bars bring out the best in me LOL And I managed to not drop kick any family members which is always a good thing. There were not really any single men. Honestly I have given up on trying to meet someone at a wedding. That has not worked for me thus far. All of the bride’s brothers were from the West Coast and kinda had their girlfriend’s there. All of the groom’s (my cousin... well the bride is now officially my cousin!) boys were married; and the ones that weren’t I either went to school with them or maybe I just wasn’t paying attention. I tend to have this fantasy about ‘Some enchanted evening!!’ which ended up not happening so I danced and drank... drank some more... danced a lil and then drank some more!! Sobieski vodka is NOT to be messed with which I knew real well the next day!! The DJ was great! He was of a blued eyed soul nature BUT HE was rocking!! The happy couple had a good time too! I had to let them both know how janky I can be with gifts, but that they would get it before the end of the year and ON THAT NOTE I still need to get a gift for my girlfriend who got married last year. It’s year 1 so it’s paper... not sure what I’ll get them but... My camera was acting shady that weekend (prolly the family $ brand batteries!) so I literally have 7 pictures but I need to download those. Thank God... errr I mean LBJ that folks are more technologically advanced than me and have posted stuff on facebook. They had a picnic the next day which was really nice. I was REAL glad when I actually had an appetite!! One of the brothers made pulled pork and beef OMG it was so good!! I had to take it easy on the beef because I wanted it to stay in my tummy!!
I talk about food a lot. I’m like Jill Scott not a blog goes by where I have not mentioned food! And I really enjoy eating. I mean it is an event sometimes! I recently tried the crab poached egg at Duesenberg's!! ___________________ this is me on the floor cause it was so freaking delicious. It may just be the time of year, but I have not tasted crab so sweet in a long time.
I have buyers remorse for this hair cut... and it’s GONE!! So now I just have to wait patiently for it to grow to the length I had wanted it cut to in the 1st place. Thank LBJ my hair grows somewhat fast!! But was rocking a crazy comb-over and i must not got no friends cause no one tole me how bad I looked LOL Actually i got more chopped off and just today I said I was rocking the Gwen Ifill... not good but I just gotta comb it differently and not as a middle aged white man aka THE COMB OVER!!
i really need another glass of wine and some apple jacks and think my evening will be complete!!
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