42 IS the answer!

My resolution for this year or maybe not so much resolution as this is how I want to live my life is I want to be able to hear what people are saying.  Sometimes I feel like my breath is just wasted on folks who only see things one way and not even consider that there is another option.  That to me is pretty limited and since I can’t change how others do things, I can change how I do things in my life. 

When I go to church… well you know I’m not always a heathen just most of the time… I pray that I get a fresh new meaning from the words.  Being a church kid having grown up in the church and conventions sometimes the same old scripture is just rehashed over again and again.  This past Christmas season I didn’t get much YES we know the Lord got Mary preggers!!  YES we know Joseph went on ahead and married her anyway cause all the angel told him it was alright!  There was more but I forgot!!

 

There is something very calming about the Bing picture of the day.  I don’t know what it is but it usually makes me smile!

 

It is the day before my birthday and I am feeling pretty good!  I think I have done a good amount of self-reflection and me and myself are ok!  This is good because sometime I feel out of whack.  42 is the answer to the Ultimate Question of Life so who really cares what the question is!?!?!  That is a total nerd thing and as I have realized I live in a nerd bubble that many folks do not reside.  If you care it is from ‘The Hitchhiker’s guide to the Galaxy’ a movie that came out in 2005.  I saw a few years ago.  It stars Zooey Deschanel and Mos Def AND Alan Rickman (they were in “Something the Lord” made the movie about Dr. Blalock (who by the way got a pretty shitty building at Hopkins LOL) at Johns Hopkins and the blue baby syndrome yes I have gone off on a tangent because He (Alan Rickman) is also part of the Harry Potter movie series more on that in a second) and a bunch of other actors.  It’s of course Sci-fi. 

 

I am now part of a new team at work.  They put the 3 (lowly) contractors on a team of people taken (or borrowed) from various areas to support the main team.  The one guy I have noticed because he’s kinda cute and has this body builder frame which it turns out he WAS a body builder.  When I first saw him I said He look like Krum… stay with me here because I am on an excessive nerd tangent.  So Viktor Krum comes to Hogwarts as part of the Triwizard Tournament from the Drumstang school (this was an all-boys school) and all the girls are like in love with him because he is a star Quiddich player even Weasley has like a man-crush on Krum but then when Hermoine decides she likes him Weasley is all ‘Krum is dumb’ because he sorta is a dumb jock.  So I meet my new team mate (full circle moment) and I say to him you know what I thought when I saw you?  He’s like no, what? I said you look like Krum from Harry Potter so he chuckles but then gives me this blank stare so I had to wikia Krum and show him and then he turned red!! I was like all the girls were falling for him because he was a quiddich player…. So you don’t like Harry Potter?!?!  He’s like Uuuhhh no.  I have to remind myself that there are only a few people that GET IT.  My nephew and new niece-in-law, a guy I went to college with and another guy I grew up with from church. Only 1 of my immediate gf’s have a clue about it the rest would give me a blank stare like WTH is she talking about now!?!?! I really geek out sometimes and get excited about stuff and folks are like WHAT??!  Like ‘Star Wars’ I won’t put any spoilers here and I would like to see it again.  But I went to house warming and there was a girl there who had just saw it and we were like kindred spirits!  I had to explain a few things to her from previous movies but there was a definitely twinkle in my eye as I got to talk about it.  I need a nerd support group I really do.  There is a podcast I listen to, FanBros which is the ‘voice of the urban geek’.  But they do a lot with geek culture heavy on comics and that’s not the kind nerd chick that I am.  I like the Marvel series (Avengers) but I only go as far as the movies and TV.  They recently did a top 12 of TV shows but it was heavy on British sci-fi and I hadn’t heard of most of them. Anywho…

It still takes me a lot to see a dude in meggins.  I was at Miss Shirley’s this Sunday meeting my fellow 1/13 birthday chick for brunch.  This really beat faced chick in heels comes in and then the dude behind her had on meggins.  I tried hard not to stare but I swear I couldn’t help it.  I just want to be like WHY?!?!  I mean I get it, they look comfortable but I can see your junk AND you wallet and anything else you may have in your pocket.  It’s just a bad look!!  There was another family with the interracial gay couple.  I try not to judge and I’m really not, but I for a second I was like why is this white guy telling this random black woman that he is getting buttermilk pancakes (oh my stalking goes deep LOL)?   So then I had to just take in the entirety of the family.  There were 2 older women sitting.  They were waiting for Dave who someone saw with the baby.  Dave drops… well not DROP, puts the baby on the floor and the 2 women are like LET ME SEE THE BABY!! The baby was knocked out and could not have cared.  There was the mom and dad (of Dave and/or his wife) and then the guy with the meticulous dreds in the very slim levi’s and the white guy.  It was all very regular and everyone seemed happy to see everybody else and that is family in the purest form.   AW hell now I got a thug tear threatening to roll down my cheek because I really do miss how my family used to be.  Just close and enjoying each other’s presence.  And not that we are suddenly NOT close, but it takes an act of congress for us all to be together on purpose. So they got called and went on their merry way.  Then there was a table of what I think were a bunch of my undergrad Sorors.  I kinda recognized one. They had so much weave.  Again not judging I to have what looks like a weave (no spell check I don’t mean we’ve) done at the good Braiding House at the good Security Mall where not 1 but 2 people zipped through the halls on their hover board because that’s how they live their lives. It took 5 hours although I thought it was only gonna take 2.  Thankfully I didn’t have anything else to do that night so it worked out. 

**this is so random I don’t even know why ALERT**

Part of a Dave Chapelle joke is that a man on the beach asks the women if they want to suck his balls because he has had cosmetic surgery and they are as smooth as eggs!?!?!? I just youtubed it!! Um yeah this is how I live MY life!!

 

 

 

 

 

even when the condition is critical, your living is miserable, you position is pivital, I aint bullshiting you!!

NOW, why would I lie? just to get by...
My titles continue to be song lyric even though I am utterly convinced only a few know what the hell I'm talking about.  I saw this video the other day.  And Talib Kweli is on the talk show on HBO right now... Bill Maher so I knew this title was correct and right!

I sit at the 'crossroads' of the outer cube nation and the region which I have named the cube village. Smaller than cube nation but not quite big enough for a city... so village it is.  Folks come at stand looking hella lost usually because by the time they get to me they usually have come too far and need some assistance.  If they give me eye contact I usually will help them including the janitor who had the vacuum strapped to her back looking like a Ghost Buster!  I still don't know if someone got sick or what because I got so tickle by what she looked like.  And her English is not on fleek so it took a second for me to understand the location she was looking for.  
i like saying something is NOT on fleek because it's so funny to me.  His English was not on fleek.  Her driving was not on fleek... maybe because saying ON FLEEK is such a silly term to me.

I can't even remember when I wrote this so lets just act like it was yesterday...
I need for this woman to not only stop clomping past my desk but also STOP TALKING TO ME!! 1^st I always have my headphones on so I can never hear you.  2^nd you walk past my desk a bazillion and one times every day WHY do you think we have that much convo, we really don’t. 3^rd you have told me you are not busy, but that doesn’t mean I’m not.  LEMME LONE!!

Last night School Daze was on.  I loved that movie as a kid.  It definitely cemented in my brain that I needed to go to an HBCU so that I too could have that experience. I was struck by a few things. 1. Greeks are crazy!!  Meaning they (we) do some real questionable things in the name of love for the frat or sorority.  Looking from the outside in why WOULD you want to get your ass beat to belong to any organization?  
I had more thoughts... but like I said this was a few weeks ago. What I was thinking about also was sex scenes that changed my life.  Well you know as a kid when you see people having the secks on the big screen it affects you.  SO I was like 13/14 when School Daze came out so when I saw Tisha Campbell licked ALL over Dean Big Brother ALL-MY-TEE, I was like are you supposed to do alladat for a dude?  Cause I just don't know about licking his head AND brands.  That's a lil nasty!  And even today at 41 it's still a little nasty.  I'ma leave that right there.  Another scene was the barn scene from Purple Rain.  I was a little younger and a little more impressionable and my sister convinced my mom that it would be ok to take me but my little eyes almost bugged completely outta my head when Apollonia was having the secks with Prince!  Prince is 5 foot nothing and he got ALL the girls and I understood right then and there why he did!! All I remember thinking was OOOHHH!!!

The roommate chronicles continue but they are little less funny than they were before.  Mainly because the decline has been severe and rapid.  What I think is funny now might not be to others, but laughter cleanses the spirit.  Like the time I tried to change her gown and i just couldn't get it over her right arm so I said fuck it and threw a sheet over her.  The aid was coming in a few hours and it's summer so she wasn't gonna freeze.  I have 3 African angels that see my face and know I don't know what the hell I'm doing and just care for my mother with such gentleness that I don't even think she appreciates but I SOOO DO!!  And then I also have a Baltimore angel who talks my ear off cause she is my might person but she is a sweetie pie and has a genuinely good heart.  I have a team cause I know I can't do it alone!  Things are really going well so I can't complain.  

I witnessed some road rage that was freaking hilarious last week.  So they are redoing Red Run and McDonogh near my job.  Whoever job it is to paint the lines didn't do a complete job.  There should be 2 lanes making the left onto Red Run, but some folks got confused and decided to make the inner most non-lane a lane and that created some issue.  So the BIG truck was in the wrong but the little Fiesta (any car that's a lil ass hatchback is a Fiesta to me) got mad and they were fussing back and forth through the window.  Dude in the Fiesta told the Truck guy to PULL OVER SO I CAN KICK YOUR ASS!!!  Well truck dude was all mouth cause he just kept driving and keeping pace with the Fiesta dude and I couldn't get around.  Alls I wanna so is get home at this point but these 2 idiots are trying to see who is bigger CLEARLY the Fiesta dude cause he was ready for a fight whereas truck dude made a left into Foxridge and then Fiesta dude drove away. It was funny because nothing really happened.  I usually just fuss in my car at whatever dumb shit the person in front of me or beside me is doing, but I'm not sure what I would actually do if I was challenged.  That's like George following the guy all the way to whatever far off borough because he though the guy gave him the middle finger when in actuality he had a cast on his arm and the middle finger was placed in an up position.  Goerge was SO MAD but then he felt silly after the fact.  Road rage can be dangerous so I think I will stick to fussing at people from the car.  OHy ou gon get called a few choice words and that makes me feel better about my life!!