42 IS the answer!

My resolution for this year or maybe not so much resolution as this is how I want to live my life is I want to be able to hear what people are saying.  Sometimes I feel like my breath is just wasted on folks who only see things one way and not even consider that there is another option.  That to me is pretty limited and since I can’t change how others do things, I can change how I do things in my life. 

When I go to church… well you know I’m not always a heathen just most of the time… I pray that I get a fresh new meaning from the words.  Being a church kid having grown up in the church and conventions sometimes the same old scripture is just rehashed over again and again.  This past Christmas season I didn’t get much YES we know the Lord got Mary preggers!!  YES we know Joseph went on ahead and married her anyway cause all the angel told him it was alright!  There was more but I forgot!!

 

There is something very calming about the Bing picture of the day.  I don’t know what it is but it usually makes me smile!

 

It is the day before my birthday and I am feeling pretty good!  I think I have done a good amount of self-reflection and me and myself are ok!  This is good because sometime I feel out of whack.  42 is the answer to the Ultimate Question of Life so who really cares what the question is!?!?!  That is a total nerd thing and as I have realized I live in a nerd bubble that many folks do not reside.  If you care it is from ‘The Hitchhiker’s guide to the Galaxy’ a movie that came out in 2005.  I saw a few years ago.  It stars Zooey Deschanel and Mos Def AND Alan Rickman (they were in “Something the Lord” made the movie about Dr. Blalock (who by the way got a pretty shitty building at Hopkins LOL) at Johns Hopkins and the blue baby syndrome yes I have gone off on a tangent because He (Alan Rickman) is also part of the Harry Potter movie series more on that in a second) and a bunch of other actors.  It’s of course Sci-fi. 

 

I am now part of a new team at work.  They put the 3 (lowly) contractors on a team of people taken (or borrowed) from various areas to support the main team.  The one guy I have noticed because he’s kinda cute and has this body builder frame which it turns out he WAS a body builder.  When I first saw him I said He look like Krum… stay with me here because I am on an excessive nerd tangent.  So Viktor Krum comes to Hogwarts as part of the Triwizard Tournament from the Drumstang school (this was an all-boys school) and all the girls are like in love with him because he is a star Quiddich player even Weasley has like a man-crush on Krum but then when Hermoine decides she likes him Weasley is all ‘Krum is dumb’ because he sorta is a dumb jock.  So I meet my new team mate (full circle moment) and I say to him you know what I thought when I saw you?  He’s like no, what? I said you look like Krum from Harry Potter so he chuckles but then gives me this blank stare so I had to wikia Krum and show him and then he turned red!! I was like all the girls were falling for him because he was a quiddich player…. So you don’t like Harry Potter?!?!  He’s like Uuuhhh no.  I have to remind myself that there are only a few people that GET IT.  My nephew and new niece-in-law, a guy I went to college with and another guy I grew up with from church. Only 1 of my immediate gf’s have a clue about it the rest would give me a blank stare like WTH is she talking about now!?!?! I really geek out sometimes and get excited about stuff and folks are like WHAT??!  Like ‘Star Wars’ I won’t put any spoilers here and I would like to see it again.  But I went to house warming and there was a girl there who had just saw it and we were like kindred spirits!  I had to explain a few things to her from previous movies but there was a definitely twinkle in my eye as I got to talk about it.  I need a nerd support group I really do.  There is a podcast I listen to, FanBros which is the ‘voice of the urban geek’.  But they do a lot with geek culture heavy on comics and that’s not the kind nerd chick that I am.  I like the Marvel series (Avengers) but I only go as far as the movies and TV.  They recently did a top 12 of TV shows but it was heavy on British sci-fi and I hadn’t heard of most of them. Anywho…

It still takes me a lot to see a dude in meggins.  I was at Miss Shirley’s this Sunday meeting my fellow 1/13 birthday chick for brunch.  This really beat faced chick in heels comes in and then the dude behind her had on meggins.  I tried hard not to stare but I swear I couldn’t help it.  I just want to be like WHY?!?!  I mean I get it, they look comfortable but I can see your junk AND you wallet and anything else you may have in your pocket.  It’s just a bad look!!  There was another family with the interracial gay couple.  I try not to judge and I’m really not, but I for a second I was like why is this white guy telling this random black woman that he is getting buttermilk pancakes (oh my stalking goes deep LOL)?   So then I had to just take in the entirety of the family.  There were 2 older women sitting.  They were waiting for Dave who someone saw with the baby.  Dave drops… well not DROP, puts the baby on the floor and the 2 women are like LET ME SEE THE BABY!! The baby was knocked out and could not have cared.  There was the mom and dad (of Dave and/or his wife) and then the guy with the meticulous dreds in the very slim levi’s and the white guy.  It was all very regular and everyone seemed happy to see everybody else and that is family in the purest form.   AW hell now I got a thug tear threatening to roll down my cheek because I really do miss how my family used to be.  Just close and enjoying each other’s presence.  And not that we are suddenly NOT close, but it takes an act of congress for us all to be together on purpose. So they got called and went on their merry way.  Then there was a table of what I think were a bunch of my undergrad Sorors.  I kinda recognized one. They had so much weave.  Again not judging I to have what looks like a weave (no spell check I don’t mean we’ve) done at the good Braiding House at the good Security Mall where not 1 but 2 people zipped through the halls on their hover board because that’s how they live their lives. It took 5 hours although I thought it was only gonna take 2.  Thankfully I didn’t have anything else to do that night so it worked out. 

**this is so random I don’t even know why ALERT**

Part of a Dave Chapelle joke is that a man on the beach asks the women if they want to suck his balls because he has had cosmetic surgery and they are as smooth as eggs!?!?!? I just youtubed it!! Um yeah this is how I live MY life!!

 

 

 

 

 

no coincidence exist that we don't manifest...

It’s a gloomy day today.  I’m not sure why that makes any difference but it does.  It’s always a good day to blog, right?!?! RIGHT!!  And I had a lot in me from thanksgiving but then I guess I talked a lot that day so I was able to get it out of me.  But I can still stat there.  Thanksgiving was pretty great!  I usually pace myself a little better likes starting Sunday or Monday but I got all my shopping done and started Wed.  I made chitlins… chitterlings (okay no red wiggly line under that spelling!), greens, bean dip, spinach dip, corn pudding, relish tray, turkey and ham.  That’s what I did.  My sister came with the rest of the sides because black folk do the most!  And we are no different.  She came in with boxes of food.  Actually most of her stuff were sweets, but she also did the macaroni and cheese, sweet potatoes, green beans, potato salad, deviled eggs… it sounds so ridiculous written down but if something is missing it always feels like the end of the world.  Several things are done in the name of tradition.  OMG I forgot the stuffing that I made!  So this is the recipe written by my sister but is from what my grandmother did cause you know that generation of cooks just knew what to do, they didn’t follow to many recipes.  It is (or rather was) cornbread stuffing.  I attempted it last year and was not nearly as close as I was this year.  I was almost in tears this year because it wasn’t coming out right and then I ran out of freaking poultry seasoning, I called my cousin who walked me through the last few steps.  It turned out really good.  Now as the cook sampling food all day and waiting for folks to get house I did have food but then I don’t think I enjoyed it all that much.  BUT THE NEXT DAY…  I was a tired chick and I slept most of the day.  I got up maybe about 10 fix a full plate of leftovers ate it and mmmm’d and ahh’d through the meal and got back in the bed.  Later in the day I fixed another full plate… and it was just as good!!  SO that was the food.  I was able to get the roommate up and out of the bed which is always good.  She doesn’t do so well with so many people in the house and then there were two little people and she got fixated on the safety of the baby who is 2 and who was into everything.  He bumped his head (he was fine) but then she was concerned every time he walked by and told him to be careful.  But in general it was just a good day and weekend.  I got some much needed sleep.

I have scored BIG today!  It is Wednesday and I’m over thanksgiving food, plus not much is left.  Yesterday I got a grilled cheese and clam chowder at the cafeteria at my job.  Why was the clam chowder so good!?!?!  Today I went downstairs to toast my pumpkin pop tart found in a random Trader Joes bag I had and totally forgot I bought last month.  I actually offered it to a co-worker and then said wait.. nah you can’t have my pop tart!! As with most companies, when there is a meeting the admins usually have food I used to be the one ordering back in the day at a few of my 50eleven jobs.  So the admin who ordered was trying to avoid having to move all of the food back to her building so she was giving all the stuff away.  There were muffins, pastries, parfaits, mini quiches.  I grabbed the mini quiche and the parfait which turned out to be plain greek unsweetened yogurt so not so good! But the quiche AND the pop tart was good.  SO then this afternoon as I look at the clock knowing it’s too late to run to the cafeteria, another admin from the group I sit beside was bringing cookies and sandwiches!  SCORE another one for me!! So I had a cookie, this good pesto chicken sandwich, chips, AND more clam chowder.  A sista is going down.  I am getting the sleepy eye!!  Itis is real!!

 

Soulful Symphony… almost forgot about this.  I have known about the Soulful Symphony for years but have never gotten myself together to get tickets.  This year after I missed the purchase of the block of tickets one of my Sorors had I just went ahead and bought some tickets and went.  All I can say is I have missed out in ALL of the years I didn’t go.  It was AMAZING!! First of all, even though I know my singing voice is not up to par, I do be thinking in the back of my head that I can just audition to be somebodies back ground singer.  I don’t know why I have this thought.  Not nobody told me I could sing and I haven’t been in a choir since my days at Rodman St. Missionary Baptist, so this is a confidence I have that is rooted in misplaced arrogance.   Usually the background singers are BETTER than the main person.  So anyway there were several featured artists, the main one being Ledisi.  I knew Ledisi was going to sing but I really thought she was going to sing the whole time.  How it works is there are people from the choir who come up and sing the solo.  They ALL could sing.  I mean REALLY SING!! Darin Atwater is the conductor/composer and has curated such a great show.  It gave me orchestra, choir, church, jazz, standards, and new!!  It was just amazing.  SO yeah I won’t be auditioning any time soon only to get my feelings good and hurt LOL  My only gripe and it wasn’t even with the performance but the place, Meyerhoff, please stop selling Fritos!!  That was all I heard for a few minutes as it began.  The people behind me had what sounded like several bags of Fritos!!  And I gave the ½ way head turn like REALLY Y’ALL!!?!?  Then it got quiet and someone else decided they needed a corn chip.

 

I need for Arnold Schwarzenegger and Mariah Carey to not be on my Kindle peddling games! 

It’s still gloomy and foggy and I am ready to crack open some wine and get myself under the covers!! I was listening to something on handzonradio.fm and the singer just said ' no coincidence exist that we don't manifest YES!!'  Aint that deep!?!?!?

So I published but didn't share the blog... I had more to say.  I am having sucha  slight caregiver issue only on Wed.  So the company I use has been sending me a bunch of different folks that some weeks I'm like EWWW I wish they would send her back or like today I was like yeah... they don't need to send her again!! Sometimes I know in my heart it is just a matter of fit and other times I'm like that woman was an idiot!!  So today the first sign was she wasn't on time.  That throws my day off.  Well actually what threw my day off was I went to iron and the fuse blew so I had to run to the basement.  It was so close to 7 that I chatted with my night person and decided to wait for the person that was going to be here during the day.  So she is late and she parks on the side of the street that has NO PARKING signs.  I mean giving her the benefit of the doubt, I know they are there, but when you are unsure don't you look for signs? So she rushed in and I'm like NO you need to move your car now!  I can't have someone's car getting towed on my conscious and I DAMN SURE don't have any funds to give because you didn't pay attention.  So she comes in and is nice enough but then she is OVERLY excited about everything... calm down lady!!  I'm showing her around and she is like well I can just lift you mom up and bring her to the living room.  UMM AGAIN I think simma down now!! what I always say to all of the people coming in my home to care for my mother is, call me!  Her are all my numbers I always have my phone on me so call the cell.. and call she did.  I was at the light just up the street and she called to see if she should give her breakfast.  YES give her breakfast and help her eat.  Then she called because she asked for fruit (which is better than cookies LOL)... well yes give her some fruit, no wait it's close to lunch give her lunch and then the fruit in a few hours.  And then she called me for something else I can't remember.  I get home thinking everything went well and it did but she is sitting in the living room.  She said, your mother said I talk to much and to leave her alone!! And I look at her like well YEAH that is how she is sometimes.  Then she says oh I didn't do the laundry because I didn't know about the machine.  **BLANK STARE** Now what now?!?!  Part of the tour is... the washing machine is in the basement and it is very regular.  Nothing fancy or high tech.  So then she is like well I can just wash now.  And I'm like NO I need to wash MY clothes so don't worry about it.  What does she do?  She goes to get the basket and proceed to go to the basement.  **BLANK STARE AGAIN!!!** Ummm... I said don't worry about it my person tomorrow will do the laundry and I just said I need to do my laundry so take the basket back to the room.  She is apologizing and I'm like it's fine!!  and it gets to the point where it's just TOO MUCH like ALRIGHT ALREADY!!! I'm like well did you go to the basement at all?  She was like no I didn't even go.  OK Fine just stop apologizing.  So yeah and then it is time for her to go and then she decided after she clocks out that she wants to have a conversation... OK bu-bye now.... I SAID BU-BYE!!!