short and sweet...

I had to do a little goggling... So the roommate was having a very lucid night. Her days are always a little off and it’s really ok.  So she said with great authority well tomorrow is Monday and I said no it's will be Thursday. And I’m always curious as to why she thinks it will be one day over another. So I say well what’s happening on Monday?  She said I want to see the show with Art Linkletter. NOW this threw me ALL THE WAY OFF!!!! Art Linkletter?!?!  So she’s like yeah you know the show with the kids.  I really have to think I said you mean Steve Harvey!?!?  And she said YES!!! I love that show!! Her night caregiver watches with her and she really looks forward to it.  So then I’m like well why Art Linkletter?  I didn’t know he did the show ‘Kids say the darndest things.’   I knew Bill Cosby did back in the day but Art did it waaaay back in the day as part of like another show he was doing. I had to ask the goggler. That was my laugh for the night.

 

I’m still in a bit of shock about the passing of Prince.  Mainly because even though they say he is gone it has been a nonstop barrage of videos and interviews and concerts he did OH and can’t forget Purple Rain. It has been a whole lot!  And I know a few die hard like for real FOR REAL Prince fans.  But please all you people who just know Purple Rain GTFOH!  AND THEN you don’t even know all the words to your supposed favorite songs!?!? yeah… so miss me with that HE WAS MY FAVORITE!!!  So yesterday I say if I hear Purple Rain (the song) one more time I’m gonna scream.  WHY does the roommate instantly go into PURPLE RAIN PURPLE RAIN!!!! Then she said that’s all I know so then my sister attempts to finish and I just look at them with a blank stare. 

 

I guess I need to keep saying it cause mofos keep trying to check me (or at least they be thinking that’s what they doing)… but what you WILL NOT do is presume to know what I am about to say.  You don’t!! Hell I don’t know what I’m going to say ½ the time.  So just let me say whatever the hell I need to say and then if it aligns with what you thought I was going to say well then good for you boo boo!

the good, the bad and the RANDOM!!!

I was driving in my car when I came up with this title… The Good the Bad and the Random and was so pleased with myself at coming up with a title of my unwritten blog post that I was going to write about my vacation in the Abu Dhabi.  And then as the days have gone by I’m like I really do need to start writing some shit down because I’m going to forget.  My mom gave me a travel journal about 10-15 years ago and my last entry was 2011 so I have a little catching up to do. I do need to segment my trip out because I heard myself talking about it to people and it sounded hella negative when I talked about the actual travel experience even though I had an awesome time once I finally got there.  Wanna hear it?  Here it go…

 

The GOOD!!

Spending time with my BFF and my god kids! In the past it has usually been just the 2 (or 3) of us so having the kids there was an interesting dynamic.  I went to visit them while they were on spring break so really where else would they be?   But it was for the most part good.  When I finally got there we went to a poetry slam.  Now I can probably count on one hand how many poetry slams I’d been to including the 2 I went to there… I’ve been to 2!!  What amazed me the most, was the amount of American Black folks that were there.  There was even a chick from my plane.  The only reason she remembered me is because I’m pretty sure I stepped on her foot but then again I am me.  And me and the girls are always memorable LOL So we did the slam thing and then went home where I slept for most of the next day.  I only woke up long enough to eat some pancakes and turkey sausage which were actually pretty good and then went back to sleep.  My body was all kinds of outta whack.  The next day was Easter and we went to this fabulous brunch at the Hyatt.  I never feel like I get my money’s worth at buffets.  In addition there was all you can drink wine.  When we told our waiter we wanted mimosas he said we have sparkling wine and red and white wine only.  BFF kept tryna explain that all you need to do was add oj but he was pretty insistent that they didn’t have what we were asking for.  So we ordered oj and sparkling wine separately and made our own mimosa.  He came back and was like OOOOHHHH is that what that is?!? It all worked out and the food was great.  The next day we went to Dubai.  I really thought it was a lot further away but it was only about an hour and a half.  We stayed at this wonderful hotel that had this horrible egg sculpture in the lobby.  I kept trying to get a good angle on it but never could.  OH and there was a Caribou coffee shop right up the street walking distance (although I never made it there) which both excited and pissed me off.  So you close ALL my Caribou’s in Baltimore but you leave it open in Dubai and Abu Dhabi?!?!  You sons of bitches… I digress. The next day we went on a Safari.  I don’t know why I thought this meant we were going to see elephants in the middle of the desert but what it actually was was sand dune bashing.  What THAT is, is going very fast over the ever shifting sand dunes in the middle of the desert.  In our truck was a family from Canada with a little 4 year old named Zara who was very cute but she talked NON STOP!!!!  I sat in the front passenger seat and the bff and the kids sat in the last row.  The little girl at one point tugs on my braid and said IT’S SO CURLY I REALLY LIKE IT!!!  Her mother was like please don’t do that Zara the lady doesn’t like that.  The nephew was not really feeing the speed and the angles of the truck and he basically was freaking out as his mom and sister tried to reassure him that we weren’t going to flip over nor die.  At one point we stopped and took pictures and he calmed down.  There was sand everywhere! as far as the eye could see.  After that we went to a desert camp where they had the camel rides and vendors and a woman doing henna.  I’ve done the camel ride in Egypt and that is all I ever need to do in my lifetime.  SO I had a pic with the camel.  We then got henna done and sat at these tables to watch some of the most unenthused belly dancers and traditional dancers.  Can I just say that walking in that much sand which was every freaking where wore a sister O U T!!! Sand will work you out even if that is not your intention.  We got back to the hotel and we all had to shower before getting in bed.  The next day we went back to Abu Dhabi and slept.  Like I said that sand wore us all out!!  The next day we went to the spa.  I LOVED THAT PLACE!!  The main thing it was a women only spa.  Because we were in a Muslim country many things are women only men only and I am SO ok with that.  Men throw the balance off for me.  When I am tryna get a little mani pedi and a man with his big ole hairy feet next to me never sits well with me.  So anyway my massage was wonderful and they had this lavender sitting room.  OH and I forgot about the brow threading.  THE BEST!  Sometimes it can be painful even though I’m used to it but this was the best threading experience I’ve had.  I’m getting a little fuzzy on the days.  I think we went to a lady’s night at Catch…. No I’m missing a lot.  At one point we went to Catch for a ladies night and I totally drank too much and danced and flirted with the DJ whose wife I met at another event (there is no shame in my GAME when I’m a lil (or a lot) drunk).  But then we also ate at Catch twice (no 3 times) and the food there was AMAZING! I think maybe went there after the spa? Also there was Asia de Cuba and I had this seafood thing with saffron rice that was so good and someone I won’t name no names threw away the rest of my rice LOL.  And then we went to Saadiyat Beach which was a public beach and the water was COLD!  I still enjoyed it but I was told that the water in the middle of the summer was hot.  Then we went back to the Saadiyat Beach club… wait we went there 2 times…. Getting fuzzy!!!  1 night was a lounge singer and the other was a party.  Had a great time both nights!! OH and Kevin Hart… LAWD how could I forget that?!?! I think Kevin Hart is hilarious and the funniest stuff were the jokes about his family.  We went to the restaurant/bar he and his entire entourage went to afterward.  I didn’t see him, but honestly I was tryna get a chicken wing. I think I saw his fiancé and she was tiny with a big butt, pretty girl though LOL  And this is why I need to write everything I do on a daily basis because I am drawing a blank… I’ll move onto the Bad and maybe come back.

 

Emirate Palace we went there for tea.  The place was opulent; beautiful with gold and shimmery tile and walls, just wonderful.  I got some good pics of the inside and outside and all the architecture of the buildings surrounding, which as an almost architect major was stunning.  The architecture was very symmetrical. 

The other spa where we had a Moroccan bath… everything is out in the open and I was scrubbed down with a loofah. It felt wonderful. I’m lying… it hurt a little because that little Pilipino woman was earning all of her pay that day.  Skin and dirt was was everywhere.  Actually it was pretty gross. LOL

The BAD!!!

My travel days were the worse.  **loud sigh** Let’s start with the Uber.  All the rage is Uber… take an Uber. UBER UBER UBER.  I downloaded the app and sent for an Uber.  It came to my house, the car was nice, the driver was nice, smelled good had a good deep voice.  My estimate for the ride was 18-24 bucks so I was thinking at worse even if it was $30 I was still saving money.  So I told the guy this was my first time, I was an Uber virgin (LOL).  I get out of the car get into the airport on my way to the gate and get the receipt.  My car ride was $64.53.  I’m standing there like WTF is this?!?!  And then I need to sit cause I have to digest why my ride was almost 3 times more than my estimate.  I sent a note back to the driver and then just try to calm myself down and not worry because fuck it, I’m on vacation.  I get to the gate, get on the plane.  The plane is a little ass puddle jumper and my carry-on won’t fit in the above cabinet so I’m pissed and my long legs cannot stretch out.  Then we taxi and then the pilot comes on; NEVER a good sign.  We are only on the tarmac for about 15-20 minutes which is good because it could have been hours.  We get back to the gate and they tell us to get off the plane.  I am sitting next to a woman who speaks NO English so when I asked her a question she looked at me and said ‘I Nepali’.  Ok lady.  We get off the plane they take our boarding passes and then the snippy gate agent is pretty rude to everyone.  At this point no one knows anything, and that was pretty much what they should have said because we all are needing to get to JFK to get a connecting flight.  After 20 minutes they say wait another 45 minutes before we get an update.  Then after another hour or so they cancel our flight.  And I don’t know how this works.  I need to get to New York… my flight to Abu Dhabi is out of New York.  At this point I am trying to get service because the line to talk to the agents is long and the people are rude.  The one woman jumped in front of me not once but twice and you know kicking her in the ass would not have been nice.  I sat on the floor trying to get through to Etihad airways.  After 45 minutes and several dropped calls and several agents whose English was questionable I get an agent who says I need to book through American because this is not their fault **blank stare** Most of the people have been rebooked or whatever and I am sitting there like SO YOU MEAN TO TELL ME I JUST WASTED 45 MINUTES TRYING TO GET THROUGH TO AN AGENT ONLY TO BE TOLD I NEED TO TALK TO AMERICAN? I was pissed (a common theme LOL) and almost in tears.  So I get the American number and the agent was very helpful.  She wanted to put me on a flight the next day, but I was like there is NOTHING today and it turned out there was a 10:30 flight out of freaking Dulles, the airport I was avoiding like the plague.  I go get my luggage and talk to the little old man at the information booth.  I need to be sure to save my duckets and prepare for the future because I do not want to be an 85 yr old person trying to give directions from the information booth at the airport.  Initially I thought to do the metro, but that was way too cumbersome.  I had to take a shuttle to get to the green line, then to the silver line and then another shuttle.  No ma’am sir!  I then went to the shuttle place that was a direct ride to the airport for $72.  Now you know I get pissed again at the thought of my $65 Uber ride but I try to put that out my mind. I get to Dulles and left my favorite (well and only) travel pillow in the van.  I get to the gate and the line is not tremendously long but it’s not moving.  So what these mofos are doing is weighing the carry-on before we got to the gate agent.  Like really!?!  Let me fast forward to my middle seat that was actually not so bad because it was the middle middle and only one person on each side.  I didn’t really rest too well but every time I tried to watch something on the little screen my eyes would close LOL That was going.  Coming back I fly to Chicago ORD.  The flight wasn’t bad but the plan was definitely tighter.  I had a window seat which when and if I do this flight again I will get an aisle seat.  My row mates didn’t mind (or if they did I didn’t much care) when I had to get up.  The people in front however had their seat fully reclined so me getting in and out was a chore.  My legs, ankles and feet got mega swollen which was not good, so I would do compression socks next time.  We get to ORD and the instruction was that if we had a connecting domestic flight, take the 2^nd escalator and go to Terminal 3.  We were in terminal 5.  So that is what I do.  I take the correct escalator get on the train and go to Terminal 3.  The American gate is right there.  Now I should have known something was amiss because ya girl was the first one in line and I sat way back on the plane so yeah.  I get to the agent she give me my boarding pass and I say to her soooooo… my luggage is downstairs?  She said didn’t you pick it up? I said now what now?!?  Pick it up where? Oh ma’am you have to go back to terminal 5.  Its 10:30 at this point and she said you have until 11.  My flight is at 11:45 so I have a ½ hour to get my luggage and be back here.  It’s doable but I think I might have to run.  Thankfully I never had to run.  I get back to terminal 5 and the little black woman who saw me before said Why are you back over here?  I started fussing at her saying I speak English but you didn’t tell me I had to get my luggage? She is dying laughing and I am too!  So I get my luggage and I’m doing a quick walk because we all know I can sashay.  Get back on the train and chat with a little cutie who is rounding up the wheelchairs.  He was saying he needed to go somewhere warm and I am in total agreement.  There is snow on the ground by the way.  I get back to terminal 3 and I saw the a random gate woman about to fix her lips to say I need to go to the OTHER gate but I stood there and said NO she said (as I am standing there point at the woman who said I could come back to her) I need to be here before 11.  I get my bags checked and then look over at the TSA line.  The gate agent is like that line is nothing, which does not pacify me but I think ok… it is doable.  OH and then after I get through the line my actual gate is ALLLLLLLL the way down to the left.  I get to the TSA checkpoint which has closed literally 2 minutes before I get there and the man say oh you can go to the one down there (pointing to the right) I said but my gate is DOWN THERE (pointing to the left) so he sends me to checkpoint 9. The line at checkpoint 9 is considerably shorter but there is only 1 TSA agent.  It is now 10:55 I need to get through the line, go potty, get water and then sit for a minute.  They will start boarding at 11:15.  I’m standing there like ok this is fine BUT THEN all the 1^st class people and crew and wheelchair people start coming in the ‘fast’ line.  So one wheelchair lady attempted to come through but then she had to find her ID.  Her 2 daughters are looking at her like ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!?! She fumbled for a good while.  I watched her fumble and I said to myself, as soon as it is my turn, this fool is going to find her ID.  SURE ENOUGH… the moment it was my turn she finds her id AND then another TSA agent comes up.  And I’m like of course you come now!!  Anyway I get with the line 5 minutes to spare.  The flight was actually good.  It was a small plane but it was bigger than the other small plane (if that makes any sense).  The plane was not completely full and the seats were nice.

More bad…

I have gotten used to all of the non-smoking everywhere.  I grew up in a house where people smoked and I hated it.  Over the years legislation changed that made it harder and harder for people to smoke inside.  I was very happy when it was banned in restaurants and bars.  So it throws me off when I still see and smell people smoke.  People smoked sooooo much where I was in Abu Dhabi.  At one place it was so small and enclosed I had to leave.  I watched people chain smoke like if they didn’t keep a cigarette lit, they might die.  I just couldn’t take it.  I just do not enjoy inhaling smoky air.  I have braids and I had to wash them a few times and spray them often just to get the smoky smell out.  It didn’t seem to bother anyone as much as it bothered me, like everyone is just used to it. 

 

The RANDOM!!!

 

·        One morning after a back and forth with Uber customer service, I got $44 back as a refund.  I had really worked myself up, because it truly was ridiculous that I paid that much for a ride to BWI which on a given day is 20 minutes.  The issue was that they said I selected Uber Black.  I let them know I did not have an option.  I sent for the car and the car came.

·        Justin Beiber has at least 2 songs that I can say that I like.  I know that R&B exist in other parts of the world but what I listened to in the car of BFF as the kids (but mainly the nephew) gave me a concert was pop music.  And the one song where the Beibs says my mom likes everyone but she don’t like you had me DYING laughing!!!

·        Traffic circles are the devil all over the world!!!

·        Caribou AND Krsipy Kreme are in UAE… I feel a way : /

·        I didn’t know there was a vulgarity law… so after I nicely cussed out that one man I really could have been shipped off to jail.  Thank you LBJ for not letting that happen.  WHAT HAD HAPPENED WAS… so there were 4 of us. 2 had already passed and then there were 2 that had to pass the hotel entrance this man in slow motion mind you saw us coming and kept driving.  Like I know he saw us and all he had to do was wait a few seconds.  SO he cut us off and then parked!  I said… (LOLLOLOL) I don’t know if you understand English but you are a rude mother fucker!! And then I kept walking.  BFF told me about the law after that. 

·        I did try shisha (aka hookah…. Pass me the hookah!!) not my thing but I can now say I’ve tried it. 

·        I really did miss pork even though I had had just done a cleanse that had no meat.  I know it was mental.

·        There is more…

ranty mood...

For about 90% out of the day if someone is not standing directly at my desk, my headphones (well earbuds) are in.  I’m listening to music (and most likely singing along all off key), or a good podcast. Stop talking to me!!! I can’t fucking hear you!!!  SO now you have said nothing but I have either pulled one of the buds out of my ear only for you to say OH hey! STOP insisting on talking to me just cause I looked at you!

I sit near an island (it has the copier and drawers for supplies and what nots) in my cube village and this is the place left over shit gets put.  I have some flat coke and diet coke and ice tea that tastes really off.  SO who is going to throw is away? ME!! I am the one who it’s going to bother the most.  I sit across from a man and it won’t occur to him. And the only other person that it might bother has put boxes in the island that used to have citrus in them which I still don’t understand what we are holding onto those boxes for so I think I will spend about a ½ throwing all of this away.

I’m in a ranty mood for really no good reason.  Its Friday I am in need of a nap because I ate the chicken from the good America’s Best.  But I really could use a nap midday everyday which is why I really need to move my ass to Spain or whatever country has a nap in the middle of the day because THAT is how I want to live my life!! And I’m also very cussy!! I just got a lot of shit to say!

Where and why do you purchase pink patent leather pumps? So you go to the store SEE the shoes decide you need then in your life.  You buy or have a dress that you think the shoes will work so you put on black thick (but not tights) panty hose and rock that shit at work!!  NOW… we all know I’m random and I think about things waaaaaaay to much.  I see this person in the stall in the bathroom; or rather I see the pink patent leather pumps and the black hose and I start moving slow because I want to see the person who put this combination together, but she is doing her thing and she aint moving fast.  AND THEN I SEE HER with this hideous dress and those damn pumps and I fight the urge to scream out WHY!?!?!?!?  I give a lot of people names and when I saw her a few months ago I said OMG she looks like Tina Belcher. I hear you collectively saying WHO the hell is Tina Belcher?  Well friends she is the oldest daughter on Bob’s Burgers which is an animated show on Fox that is freaking hilarious.  She is voiced by man and she is 13 and you really have to watch the show to fully get why it’s funny.  Or NOT cause I have a specific weird nerd kinda humor. 

Now I have been on this team for going on three years as a contractor, my birthday has already passed but you are just now asking me for my birth date so the team can celebrate!?!? GTFOH!!! Nope that’s ok… you don’t have to do shit for me!!  I have actual friends and family who care about me.  We don’t have to do a fake celebration in my honor 2 or 3 months after the fact.  GET OUTTA MY FACE WITH YOU INSINCERE FAKE TEETH HAVING SELF!! **blank stare**

I HOPE that it gets to you

So today is going to be a blog day!  I am sitting here fighting the urge to lie on the floor and take a nap.  This day started off with so much hope!  I got here at 8:20 which is well before 9 which is what I seemed to do all last week.  I had energy! I was upbeat! I was ret to work!  Now I’m just ret to go home!! I just turned on some good house music.  Actually I tried to start my day off with house, but it was gospel house and that isn’t my favorite.  I need a good beat good vocals and I’m good.  SO that means not vocals that the producer is trying to work around because the singer sang in a key that is just… off.  I’m listening to Ian Friday now so I’m sure I won’t run into that issue.

I’m trying to blog more consistently random which make absolutely no sense LOL And see this is why I can’t really be a pop culture blogger because I don’t keep up very well with what is going on.  I’ve been wanting to write about Grease Live! for a while and I’m not sure why now is a good time.  Maybe because I just saw an ad to buy the dvd to buy it.  I tried really hard to watch but it just didn’t do it for me.  I stopped at the part when Sandy should have sung ‘Hopelessly Devoted’ but she didn’t and I tweeted for all my 5 ‘fans’ to know I was done watching.  There were mostly positive things that were said.  I was trolling for the bad reviews but folks were saying all nice stuff so I knew these were not my people.  Actually I’m going to twitter now; nope still good stuff.  I might have to give it a chance.  But I am a Grease purist!  I have the ALBUM folks!!! With all of the songs from the original movie!! I bought a record player a few years back because I have the Grease album (along with Al B. Sure (#dontjudgeme) Ten City (house music) and… some random Herb Alpert record I got back in the day from WAMO (all my Pittsburgh people know) with Janet Jackson’s ‘Making Love in the Rain’ and I was 14 so I ain’t know nothing about making no love (still probably don’t LOL)). I am that chick that almost hit a chick who said Grease 2 was better! I like musicals and musical movies so I should like it, but OK so we decided I will give it another shot and report back.  Hopefully it is still on on-demand.

I am excited… and I just can’t hide it!!

WHY is this woman leaning over my desk to talk to my cube mate in the next row?!?  Thank you LBJ I had my headphones on so I didn’t hafta hear that dumb conversation.

I have drunk all my water today which is about 64 ounces and I am usually running to the ladies room but I just haven’t felt like it today.  It is taking too much effort. YES, I have to go but that means I have to turn off my music and hope the podcast the music is on doesn’t decide to reset, cause it does that sometimes, close my screen so that the random passer-by can’t see that I’m writing in a non-work capacity, do some cat like stretching because inevitably my bones are going to creak an crack, thankfully I have a dress one so I don’t have to pull up anything over my midsection but I do have to pull down so that my booty is not all out and about cause who needs to see alla dat?!? Take off my shawl cause it is chilly in this office and I really am a little old lady; turn off my heater cause all this hot air up my dress is maybe not the right move since I’m already sleepy which means I then have to get on one knee…LAWD ok I’m going.

i like my baby hair with baby hair and AFROS!!

You ever talk to someone you know is not paying any attention to what you are actually saying?  SO a co-worker stops by my desk asks me how I’m doing and I say well I can’t get up from the desk because my stomach is killing me, but I’ll be ok in a few.  She says Oh that’s good!  And then goes on to say how she needs to get her hair done this weekend.  Thanks for caring about my needs. 

I held the elevator this morning for a woman who had on long rider boots with her pants tucked in.  I didn’t really realize and look at them that hard until just now.  They are regular pants (meaning not slim) and the top of the boots has pants gathered there and it looks a mess and funny. 

What about me says to you I know about running or running events?  My co-worker was telling me about some event in Westminster that was about to happen in however may days.  He was excited but I looked at him and gave a for real blank stare.  I know Black girls Run and I know chunky girls workout… but yeah me and the girls have not been a friend of running since my Schenley (that would be my now closed high school) days.  Even at Virginia State I would cringe when whatever PE class I was mandated to take made me to run.  No… I don’t do that.

But I need to do something.

I did a staycation over the President’s Day weekend. I wasn’t as well thought out as I wanted it to be but it was absolutely wonderful! I got a room in the BWI area hotel, packed up a little bag and went.  I checked in and then went to the Chili’s and got a good steak and shrimps (yes shrimps LOL), came back  and commenced to doing NOTHING!  SO now the thing about doing nothing at home is that I see that pile of laundry that I could just go and throw in the washer but then if I did that then I am doing something., and that defeats the purpose of doing nothing.  But if I didn’t then I feel bad about not doing nothing so that creates stress.  At a hotel I’m just there not thinking about my disaster of a house and everything in it including the roommate and the cat LOL!! I caught up on those horrible Real Housewives show, I started reading my book for book club (that I didn’t finish just yet) and then I sat around naked.  And that was all I needed to get myself refreshed!  I need to put it on my books for a quarterly refresher.  But I have my BIG vacay going to see my BFF in Abu Dhabi, then a quick trip to the ATL to see my nephew graduate from college then another trip to Cleveland (yeah I know but it will be fun) for the my family reunion so I might not need a staycay until September!!

random blog #11374

I really need to vent but I think if I say everything I need to get off my chest I might start crying.  Actually there is no guarantee that I won’t be sitting here crying messing up my cute make-up today.  But here goes… First I really am questioning my choices in the men I keep trying to be with.  Nothing is wrong with them (well that’s not true but, like you know whatever) the ones here lately just don’t seem to be right for me AT ALL!!  And then I look at folks and wonder if I made a big mistake somewhere along the way.  And then I want to be like Peggy Sue got married (that was a movie) and go back in time and if time really is relative, maybe there is an alternate universe that I made the right ok maybe not right but OTHER decisions and living a different life.  Who knows? I just need for someone to take my needs into consideration.  Like ask me how I’m doing and feeling and what I want!  I don’t live my life on a whim.  I plan EVERYTHING so planning shit by ear doesn’t work for me.  It just doesn’t.  Nor am I going to wait for you to have a few minutes to give me attention NOR am I going to be all excited because you finally thought about me.  So yeah I might forever single and I am so ok with that. THEN there’s all this death.  I know death is a part of life… it’s gonna happen.  But it feels like so many people are just leaving this earth.  A Soror who I didn’t even realize was a sick as she was when I saw her back in December passed away this morning.  She was truly one of those people that I know my life is better for having known her. I always gravitated toward her.  She was a good spirit.  For the most part I am not a hugger but I always gave her a hug and I will truly miss that.  And then there was one of my friend’s mom who suddenly passed away a few Saturday’s ago.  Things had to be rearranged for her viewing because of the blizzard we had.  She was the last of a class of women who when you went into her house, she asked if you wanted a plate... Because she cooked and had food waiting!  I mean women today just don’t have food on the ready at all times.  I mean I DO cause I have a roommate that needs to eat, but I digress.  I had been thinking about her because her house was not far from mine and is on the way to my job. But we are not really in a drop in kinda era.  These days we have to call, text, or tweet if you want to come by. I feel bad that I just didn’t stop by and say hey! SO I’m feeling sad and almost want to hold my breath cause there has been so much bad news.

I really need to stop assuming people have my best interest LOL

What I am doing for myself this fine Valentine weekend is giving myself a staycation. I don’t relax when I am home because something always needs to get done, and then I don’t do it so feel stress about not doing it and never truly relax or just go pour a glass of wine and ignore whatever the thing is.  SO I’m going to a hotel!  I’m just going to enjoy not having to worry about anything AND I’m getting room service and not doing a damn thing.  I probably need to work it into my schedule to do it quarterly and just take time for me. 

What you won’t do is ask me a question and then tell me I’m wrong when you are the one that needs the information from ME!!  I am so sick of people doing that to me.  I’m not sure how I come across to folks.  I mean do I come across as vapid? It’s ok for me to know stuff it doesn’t take anything from you if I know what I know, and you know what you know!

I am so sleepy right now… I need a nap and I need it NOW!!

It’s Friday and I’m off Monday.  Life is good!!!

can't run from myself, there's nowhere to hide

I got straight emo when the Whitney Houston video I have nothing came on this morning... I don't know why today but this title is paying homage to her! 

There is a new guy that is on a team in cube nation and he is just so happy to have a job!  You ever see one of those people?!?  He is maybe mid 40’s (or older or younger I can never tell LOL) and he is just HAPPY!!  People can get very jaded and cynical and it is refreshing (even though he looks a little crazy some days) to see people who are happy to be right where they are. 

I have a lil cold right now and I’m a little pissed because I got my flu shot and I feel as though I should not get sick EVER!! It’s not that I feel bad, but my sinuses decided that they just gonna close! My right nostril has been closed since Monday.  I mean I can breathe some of the time.  I’m sitting here at work with my humidifier with eucalyptus on, my tissue (2 kinds with and without lotion), hand sanitizer, and OF COURSE Vaseline.  OH and my mirror so that I can check my nose often to make sure no snot is running down my face and that a boogie is not just hanging out.  I probably need to go get some more drugs.  AND I probably should have stayed home.  I’m not that strapped for cash but home is not really a resting place. My mother demands so much of my time with not a care… wait that’s not fair she has dementia so it’s not that she doesn’t care, but she doesn’t remember that other people have needs.  Last night I said I am going to make myself some tea. She decided she needed some tea also.  But tea for her means it has to have brown sugar and only filled ½ up and it needs an ice cube because I have to hold it so she can sip it through a straw.  Meanwhile I just want to sip on my tea.  Then she needs a piece of candy.  She has already had several cookies and her hands show it because they are dirty and so I need to clean them but she is a HUGE child so touching her hand means she has to flinch and yell out YOU HURT MY HAND!! And I just say fuck it and go lay on the couch.  She then realizes she didn’t get her candy and calls me back in the room.  And I indulge her because what is one more piece of candy gonna hurt? I know I was in a horrible mood yesterday.  I had to bite my tongue more often than usual when I talked to a few people because I was not feeling well.  But today I feel a little better so we’ll see how today goes.

I was listening to a podcast  ‘Friend Zone’ and they were talking about a version of the Meyers Briggs personality test that you can go online and get your information for free.  I went to the website www.16personalities.com and did the test.  My personality name is Campaigner and my letters (?) are ENFP –A which I know means something specific but I didn’t see what it was.  It’s a test that you answer several questions that are able to dictate your personality.  I thought it was pretty cool and accurate.  I would like for my friends to do it so we can see who’s who and what’s what.

I just bought some Allegra or at least the CVS brand and I hope this helps the dry me up and for me to stop sneezing.  I also bought more Vaseline or at least CVS brand (wow I was being cheap today LOL) because I need the moisture!!!

A girlfriend of mine who shares the same birthday as me celebrated her birthday ALL month.  Not because she was turning a particular age that’s just what she wanted to do! One of her events was a Dance Palooza or a Zumba party.  Now 2 years ago I could hang with the best of them.  I was in better shape even though I was about the same size.  But this Saturday my body was like bitch please!!!  It was so stiff.  I knew I was gonna need several advil after.  I had a great time and it was fun but I have got to get my body together.  And it’s not even a vanity thing because, let’s face it, there will always be a dude who likes the thick ones, but it is a heart thing.  I am taking high blood pressure meds and I need to get off.  And we all know I’m an infomercial junkie and if you didn’t NOW you know.  Yep I bought the Shaun T’s new video Cize!  Let’s forget that I already have Hip Hop Abs, T25, 10 minute trainer, Turbo Jam, The Firm Express and a few more but I needed the newest thing so I got it.  BTW... I love Amazon Prime! You just order and the shit comes right to your house in 2 days!! I haven’t tried out the Prime Now but I hear you can order ice cream and it comes good and still frozen within the hour. Not that you want ice cream in this weather but hey it’s an option. Ok back to celebrating random birthdays… it think we all should do it more often. Life is way too short and you never know.  A soror of mine had a 74^th birthday for her mom because WHY not?!?!  I don’t think you should wait for a significant age to celebrate.  DO it now!

WHY DON’T I HAVE POCKETS!!! Why do you designers make women’s pants without freaking pockets?!  I’m headed to a meeting and I need to stick a few tissues in my non-existent pockets. DAMN DAMN DAMN!!!!

And I’m sipping on tea.  It’s of some herbal variety not real all that good but hopefully it’ll push this bug outta me.  Why do I need to know who played the Sheila Dixon on the Wire character right this second.  Lawd I know why but that explanation will be way too long… SO yeah the same chick that is now on Chicago Med AND Hitch.   My brain is a beautiful thing!!