There's something on my back that I need to get off babY...

 The year of our Lord and Savior 2022 and I have not blogged one single word.  I don't have a reason!  My faithful 4 have probably found other blogs to read, or maybe they are on the TikTok... I don't know.  But I am feeling the need and mostly I do this for me so if you read and enjoy, GREAT, if not, dats cool!!

I'm sitting here listening to a vlog on the YouTubes and they are eating Peruvian food, so you know now want Peruvian Food, but the way I'm doing things right now is I am trying to eat the food that is in my house and/or food I purchase to cook myself.  I am trying not to buy food out ALTHOUGH I did yesterday and that McDonald's hash brown and sausage McMuffin was EVERYTHING!  It was crisp and fresh and so good!  And on this past Saturday even though it was not raining at my house, the heavens opened up the second I got to Baltimore City and attempted to run across the street to Sugar Mama's. BTW if yo have not done yourself the favor of stopping by this spot and live in the Baltimore metro area I really need to know why you are living your life that way? I got the jerk chicken on coco bread with fries, and 3 wings on the side and a triple mix. It was worth every single calorie! What I will say that it wasn't even my favorite thing to get there because my usual is a French toast sandwich.  I have digressed... So my goal is to cook more and eat more green veggies and fruits and berries and I am on my way to the Aldis to get food to cook.  And even as I type this I have yet another goal to try new restaurants in the area.  I follow 3 or 4 food bloggers on the Instagram and everything the have, I want.  The way my bank account is set up though tells me that I can't live my life like that.  Also, the 40 pounds that I had lost during all of the Covid (why is there still squiggly lines under covid?!?!) quarantining, well not all but a few of the pounds, have found their way back and I need to get them off and going out frequently is not the right answer.  I attended a webinar at work today and outside of the basic information I already knew, something that I didn't is that berried are a better fruit choice than apples.  You know the saying an apple a day? And I do like strawberries, and blueberries so they are on the list when I hit the store.

If I'm being honest I am pretty bored today.  I probably could be doing a lot of other things, but I don't feel like it.  All the reports I need to do are done.  Paperwork is where it needs to be.  So I'm just going to enjoy this small amount of down time this afternoon.

Also, still in the vein of honesty, I am bummed I don't have a trip that I have planned.  I love the idea of something to look forward to and I have nothing to look forward to right now.  At one point there was supposed to be an Atlantic City getaway and then another point there was supposed to be a Vegas getaway neither of which panned out.  I looked online at some of the various travel groups and no one has anything with availability until next year and the one that did have availability skewed toward a 20 something crowd.  I'm not quite the AARP crowd even though I am a card carrying member EVEN though I am under 50 (and that's a whole nuther thing on my mind cause 50 is way closer than I like to think about some days), but I wanted something that wasn't what I saw.  Then I am completely in my head, because I would like a little weekend SOMETHING, but where?! Do I drive? Do I hop on a plane?  Do I do a staycation? But then where do I drive; where do I fly? How many days?  Do I feel like being bothered with family or friends?  If it's solo then I need to feel safe.  And again... bank account is a consideration as well. So just too many questions and I am way too indecisive to answer any of the above.

And then these fucking men I work with/for.  MAKE A DECISION!!  Right or wrong then that will be that.  Which is funny because I just said I was indecisive, but business is business and your lack of decision making affect ME!! Also, they get paid tons more than me to make decisions.  I am so low on the totem pole and  I am interested in making my life easier, so if you want me to do whatever thing I need to do to make your life easy, you best to believe I am going to do the thing that make MY life easy.  And that's all I got to say about that!!

Some good TV I've been watching... P-Valley **no spoilers** but BAYBEEE the secks scenes have made me holler!!  And every one is having the secks!!!  Same secks!  Opposite secks!! Tittays OUT!!! Punani OUT!!!! Peen... OUT!!!!! wait.. is there peen out in this show or ws that another show?  It is a bit much but I'm here for it!! And I will say, whatever Diamond did to Mercedes to get the weight off her, I  NEED!!!

I just started re-watching New Girl and it still holds up.  It is a funny ass show.  I watched Dopesick and it is so fucked up that big pharma specifically that family in that show which is a real family are all about money,  I mean trying to heal people is NOT the main goal every.  I just finished the 2nd season of Russian Doll and that show was good!  I still have to start Stranger Things, I just haven't been in the mood.  And Barry... season 2 ep 5 was THEE most hilarious.  Now this is a dark comedy, but I literally laughed out loud the entire episode.  Like I shouldn't be laughing at people trying to kill other people, BUT I DID!!  Umbrella Academy left me wanting MORE!!!  I still can't get into The Expanse, but I finally got to a point where I was like OH OK... I get it.  Kenobi, is epic Star Wars goodness.  I like sci fi clearly!!  Ms. Marvel is a cute lil show.  And I am majorly pissed Naomi got canceled.  I started the latest season of Queen Sugar and Ralph Angel is still fine... but his accent isn't as ridiculous.  I need for Aunt Vi to calm down!! I'm only a few episodes in.  also, Everything's Trash so far so good, the main chicks acting is not the best, but I can dig it!

OK... I am feeling a little lighter now!  I still have a lot of thoughts and this is just a small snippet of my randomness but it's nice to get it down and off my chest.  

Gettin Jiggy with it! (cause why not? LOL)

I keep going on to the QVC to see what they have knowing good and well I am not buying NOTHING!!!  I've already purchased and received the gifts I bought for myself Wanna know what I got?!?!  So... I love Love LOVE the brand Mented a make-up brand for women (or people cause men wear make-up too and I try not to judge!) of color.  The first thing I bought from them was a set of nude lipstick's.  Nude never used to mean a color that anything near my shade, but they have so many to choose from.  My favorite is Dark Knight a deep brown with subtle red undertones, like my skin! The other 2, Brown Bare and (I think) Foxy Brown ( I guess I should mention, I can't find the Foxy Brown one *sad face* ).  So what I got was the curated box they had for Harlem, the show on Prime.  In the box was a liquid matte lip, a blush, a mascara, and the Everynight eyeshadow palette.  I also bough some Double Good popcorn and I have truly been savoring it because my entire ass needs to be on somebodies diet real soon!!

**SPOILERS**Harlem on Prime** watch it then come back...

Harlem on Prime is a series with Meagan Good and Boo boo kitty (Grace Byer) as the lead; the other 2 women I'm not familiar with.  It was really slow going for me.  Meagan (Camille) overacts MOST of the time and even though she has been doing this for quite a while, I always want her to just relax and just freaking act.  And her eyebrows need to be softened, like are we still rocking the severe eyebrows like that?!? She is so freaking pretty, but those eyebrows are too much for the kid! Her character is a doctor (PhD) yet she makes some really dumb decisions and lacks confidence.  Like bitch, you a whole ass doctor... GET IT TOGETHER!! Grace (Quinn) plays this ultra desperate woman who ends up on a group date/pyramid scheme when the dude after the fact asked her to pay for the lobster roll she didn't even eat!!  I don't really want to go there, but Angie played to way to loud, inconsiderate Black woman which seemed like a horrible caricature of dark skinned black women.  Like I had to really push myself past her initial scenes.  And then there is Tye, the app creator of an LGBTQIA+ (cause the plus includes so much more) dating site, who ends up dating a white chick but then feels conflicted and then we find out she was married to a man.  Rounding out the cast is Robert Ri'chard (they gave me some nice booty shots :), Andrea Martin (she had a few shows in the past, but she is so funny to me), the dude from The Have and the Have Nots, Whoopi Goldberg,  and freaking Jasmine Guy!  It took to maybe ep 7 or 8 for me to be like OK I see you girl!!!  I mean not my favorite show but I would love to see it come back and the characters be developed even more. 

We have had a resurgence of Black women led shows to include Insecure (even though this is the last season).  First Wives club with Jill Scott, Michelle Buteau, Ryan Michelle Bathe. Season 2 had to make some Covid related changes so it wasn't nearly as good as season 1 but it is still a solid show.  Run the World on Starz with Bresha Webb and Amber Stevens and 2 other ladies.  This is a close second to Insecure to me.  The music is AMAZING, done by Robert Glasper, so of course.  Now my main gripe with all of these shows is, Black women do exist outside of New York City!  I mean come on!! But I love how they seem to be making a comeback.

You know what, I'm tired of being scared! I want to live my life, go to places (like on a plane) I want to go without a fear of this damn virus.  I want for the people who are contracting it now to not die!! I think I pretty much said the same thing this time last year. I am truly blessed to have never gotten sick!  

I'm okay, Okay?!

 I watched the Insecure finale just like everybody and I have some thoughts.  Unlike my 1 girlfriend who said she only had 1 question which was 'Where was Molly's dog?!'  Like ma'am HOW is that your onliest question?  And we barely seen Flava Flav since season 2 or 3, so to answer her question... He's boarded in a doggy daycare somewhere! Here are my questions of this last season in general and in no particular order:

1. Why was Dro at the going away party? Why wasn't his wife (well ex-wife) there instead? Was he friends with Tiffany and Derek?  Did he and his wife go to Stanford with them?

2. The relationship with Nathan always seemed off to me.  So I wasn't really 'Team Nathan' nor was I 'Team Lawrence' but I do like how it ended up... And this isn't really a question so much as me thinking out loud on the computer blog but they both seemed to have gone through several relationships before they found their way back to each other.

3. Why didn't they ever show Kelly's baby?  They jumped a year ahead so she should have had it.  And then Tiffany was pregnant at Molly's wedding.

4.  MOLLY'S FREAKING WEDDING!!!  I never saw it for (bitch ass) Taurean, but he really made the most sense and I freaking love that they ended up together! I loved that dress!  Wedding dresses are so subjective and I really only like a handful of dresses whether friends or receptions I've bartended or the TV, but that one was amazing!  Don't at me if you didn't like it.  LOL  I didn't like the Bridesmaids dresses,  like you a whole AKA on the TV show, you putting them in red dresses?!?  Where they do that at?  

5. Why didn't they let (fine ass) Daniel make an appearance?!?  For all the cameos at the end, they coulda had him walking down the street or something!! I mean DANIEL ALL DAY ERR DAY!!!! I guess I was 'Team Daniel'... whew chile all that chocolatey goodness.

6. I was a mess after Molly's mom passed away so I am super glad they didn't show the funereal or any of that.  

7. So the (cutie pie... I can't remember his name) barber was about to beat Nathan down for taking his customer, but he called Nathan when he got locked out? Like they resolved that beef real fast.

8. Did Tiffany and Derek stay in Denver?  And did y'all see her hair was a hot mess in one of those scenes so is it safe to assume to too much Black hair care is going on in them Colorado streets?

9.  I really need for Chad and Kelly and Issa's brother (da hell is his name? had to goggle it, Ahmal!)) to have some type of spinoff.

10.  And did y'all see Chef Julian!?  Damn I miss the Black N Sexy shows! That was a whole movement for a few years of which Issa Rae was part.

11. I'm going to rewatch the finale and see if I missed anything... then I am also going to watch and listen to podcasts. 

Sometimes I gotta goooo, where I don't feel like going!

 You ever had a time when you know the question that you're not even sure how to ask is about to unleash a can of worms that isn't even necessary to open!?!?  I'm sitting here like I know my question is simple, but it's about to open up a lot of dumbness.  So do I just ignore and wait for the thing to happen that in inevitably going to happen??  OR do I be proactive and start a good ole shit show!?!? LOL

I had the craziest dream last night.  There was a hotel party and I'm not even sure what the event was nor the hotel, but we we in a lobby of sorts and mostly all the people in my family were there.  You had to get your ticket verified by some random guy and I walked over to do just that.  It was like around the corner.  I was early so there was no line.  The guy who had to verify my ticket was I guess a bartender and had these little shots of drinks, but they weren't really a shot size, less than that so they looked like samples.  I asked him if they were samples and he said HELL NO!  I was like OK... well how much do they cost? and he said $82 for 12 and I was like oh ok never mind (like why would I need 12?!?!  both numbers I'm sure mean something but I have no idea).  So then he starts pouring the shots (there was this big punch bowl that looked like caramel sauce) and I said I SAID I DIN'T WANT THE SHOTS!  And he says DAMMIT! (LOL writing this is freaking hilarious).  He slams down the ladle spoon and then sits down.  He got some drink or whatever the hell it was on my alphet (say it out loud) and I was pissed so I go to his chair and say DUUDE, my dress!!!  He shrugs and then I say, What about my ticket?  and he threw my ticket on the floor and shrugs again.  I am fuming at this point and kick over his chair with him in it! He is on the floor stunned and I get real bold and say YEAH!!  AND WHAT?!?!? Then I walk back around the corner and meet up with my people... and that was all I remember of the dream LMBAO!!

I've had other dreams sine then but I can't remember them as vividly...

We all know that random thoughts pop into my head at any given time, it just the nature of how my brain works.  So why wasn't there a black cousin in the movie Bridesmaids?!?  We all know Maya Rudolph is bi-racial, and in the movie her father is very clearly black, so you mean to tell me she aint have that one cousin on her daddy's side that she coulda put in the wedding?  As it is most of them are friends; I think Wendi (from Reno 911 & the Goldberg's ) played her cousin and Melissa McCarthy played the sister in-law (so she had to be a bridesmaid) were the only family representation.  And I just looked to see that Judd Apatow was one of the main producers and he don't put black folks in his movies... there are several articles about this.  But also to this point, he like most directors and producers use mostly the same rotation of people; but C'MON!!!  She had a black cousin that was pissed she wasn't invited to be a bridesmaid!  ijs (LOL)

Why can't I keep my sneakers clean?  They are white and fabric and I have washed them twice.  I think I will just stop buying white; that will solve that.  I have been buying alot of sneakers though.  And by alot I mean 3 pair; and I feel like I need one more.  I work on the bottom floor and there is so much concrete.  What I don't need is for my legs and back to be killed by the concrete.  And as much as I like sandals and having my toes out (well in the summer) the amount of walking I have to do daily is just more conducive for sneakers.

Stopped to watch my emotions sway!

This week has been rougher than I needed for it to be.  My cousin who I grew up with passed away suddenly on Sunday 8/22... the same day as my oldest nephew's birthday AND the same day as my father's funereal 20 years ago. So this date already has been bittersweet and now I have more bitter to add to the day unfortunately.  My cousin was generally a good person, God fearing, good father. There is so much I could say. What I will say is this one hit different! He was in a car accident earlier this summer and had to have surgery as a result. Everything went well as far as we knew, but several months later, he passed away. I've just been sad and everyone is saying nice things on Facebook and that makes it that much harder.  This one was not expected at all.  He had 2 kids; 18 who just graduated from high school and the other 12 in middle school.  I don't know how it is to lose a father that young.  I lost my dad in my late 20's.  It is still very surreal!  I couldn't look at him real hard in the casket because even though they did a good job, that wasn't him.  I want to be cremated!  Not sure where I want to be sprinkled but that is the plan! Maybe a few on my family member's graves (wait is that weird?).  My uncle was put in the casket with my grandfather (that was weird because they didn't like each other... although to be fair, I'm pretty sure my grandfather didn't like most people).  And we are done with casket and cremation talk!

I was listening to the song 'Just Got Paid' by Johnny Kemp and the lyrics as I thought them to be:

Just got paid, Friday night

Party hunting, place is right

Booty shaking, all around

Know one thing; that I'm getting down

I just went to the 'official lyrics and they was wrong wrong wrong!!!  BUT What I heard on the radio this fine AM was... well all of the above EXCEPT the Know one thing said.. POURED ONE DRINK NOW I'M GETTING DOWN!!  Why was I in my car like this truly blew my mind?!?!  All this time I thought he was saying KNOW ONE THING!!! Not POURED ONE DRINK!!! **mind blown emoji** LOL

This one was the blog queued up, well kinda sorta.  It has been several weeks and let's see... I went RVing (well RV light as my niece would say).  She found the RV on Air BnB and rented it. I mean it was cute to do, but I promise I'm good!  I don't have to relive that ever again!!  I realized (well this ain't no new realization) that I like luxury (on a budget LOL).  The space was a little tight, and with 4 real grown adults and 2 small kids, it was interesting.  There was a clubhouse across the way that had a bigger/regular bathroom cause, none of us were trying to clog up nothing! My baby niece who is 1 is very demanding.  I took the handful of blueberries out of her hand so that she could eat them 1 at a time, after she stopped yelling at me, she would tap my hand so that I could feed her blueberries.  It basically was, since you won't let me do it my way, FEED ME (bitch is implied LOL)!!!  The baby nephew who is 4 has way too much energy for me! I must say, there is a huge difference to being an aunt when I was 15 and being an aunt at 47.  I'm just tired.  So when he is revving up I have to say 'Baby, Aunt Tauf does not want to fight right now (or ever!)'.  His parents recently put him in soccer, so lets hope that helps with his energy.  We did make it to Assateague where the wild horses were supposed to be roaming on the beach.  We saw a few horses, and I did get to dip (literally cause it was a gloomy/rainy day and I didn't wear my suit) my toe in the water; that was cool!

It has now been several more weeks... I am not so god with the blogging LOL I went to Florida which yadda yadda yadda, I talked about in the previous blog.  I did a quick lil trip to Atlantic city with my boyfriend which again I dipped my toe.  So if we are counting, I have dipped my toe 4 times this year!!!  Rehobeth back in May, Florida, Ocean City, and then Atlantic City!!  I can't really complain.

It has been yet even more more weeks.... and I need to go ahead and edit this thing and post it.  I will say that I am in one of my bi-weekly work meetings.  What I love is that I have a co-worker that I actually like and can joke about people during the meeting!  That is all I will say about that because you know, I like to try to pretend to protect the innocent.

And now my random thought for right now is that I need a  French Toast do over this weekend.  I went to a place last week not too far from my house and the French toast was terrible AND expensive.  I really want to give this place another try, but it's going to be a good long minute before I do because I don't like to waste money, nor calories.  I might have to hit up Sugar Mama's or Miss Shirley's.  Hell even Double T Diner would have been way better!  And I'm getting mad all over again at those pieces of bread that didn't soak in any kinda egg solution.  

but yo, I don't know what to tell ya!

 I had another blog queued up and ready to go but then I went to Florida on an airplane and I got some stuff to say.  First of all... Southwest, I thought we had an understanding that you were not going to have people in the center seat?  It worked well for me going down, but coming back home... Those mofos sold EVERY SINGLE SEAT and then some on that flight.  And, had I known that, I would have NOT had my bag on the seat when all of the people under 150 pounds walked back.  Now what I have never claimed to be was a little chick, but babaaay, the woman that sat beside me was very ample in size. And I looked at her and her 5 bundles of wet and wavy hair, caterpillar eyelashes, and long nails and thought a few different things.  I don't want to body shame because big girls are sometimes just big girls!  I'm more annoyed with Southwest than her. I just wished she didn't move around so much, and I wish I didn't miss the beverage service (wait... was there beverage service?!?), and I wish my arm and leg didn't go to sleep, I wish the flight attendant didn't make the announcement that we needed to keep our masks up when Southwest knew damn well they didn't care nothing about no social distancing, by booking the whole damn flight, like yes we can help to curb the transmission but shit, SHIT!!! REALLY Y'ALL... but you know... I made it safely home!  

On to the time in between the fuckery of Southwest... I went to Florida and had a great time!!  I hadn't seen my cousin or aunt in over 2 years and that is just unacceptable!  Over the last few years so many things have happened and it was just impossible to get down there.  SO I'm just glad that I was able to slow down a bit and hop on a plane and go lay eyes on my family!  My cousin picked me up and when we got to the house there was a soror sitting with my aunt and my aunt IMMEDIATELY says 'Oh the baby is here! '  And I don't know why this always throws me off, cause I have to say out loud to remind myself that I am 47 whole ass years old!! And if we being technical 47 3/4... REAL close to 48 and even closer to 50 which I know don't make sense but whatever!  And I can shake it off pretty quickly, because saying, I'M A GROWNUP makes you sound stupid!!  I am real grown as Ms. Evelyn Braxton would say.  Anyways, I get there on a Friday and we didn't do much Friday.  Saturday was 'pool day' interrupted by a crazy midday Florida down pour.  Their pool is so close to the house, almost a private pool for them.  And jeez, just thinking when the last time I've been in a pool?!?!  Huh... it's been several long minutes.  Sunday we went to The Orange Blossom Classic which was a game between FAMU and Jackson State.  This will serve as my Homecoming.  I haven't made it to Virginia State's homecoming in more years than I care to even think about!  So to see 2 amazing HBCU bands was a-freaking-mazing!! (I just said amazing twice.. that's ok carry on LOL) And, it was all in the comfort of a great suite!! I love when my people are in the know! There was chicken and vodka and Pepsi and water in a can (not sure why the Aquafina couldn't come in a plastic bottle... but whatevs), even some rose in a can.  It was really just good fellowship and a good time! Not really sure what happened during the actual game, but what I do know is those folks are serious about their teams and colors!  I have seen more para than I have before EVER!   Monday we went to this great Greek restaurant and then the beach!  I mean, how do I go all the way to Florida and not dip my toe in the ocean?!  We drove up to the beach and found a great spot.  The water was wonderful and I already miss it! At some other point we went to this local spot, Catfish Dewey's, that had all you can eat catfish; man it was so good!! I am now plotting my voyage to a local spot in Baltimore that has catfish because I need more!!

I need to understand why this one security guard makes it a point to come into this office to use the bathroom!?!?  Like WHY  SIR????  He then chats with whomever is available (never me though cause.... it clearly is a man thing and I am so ok with that LOL) and then leaves. And he has a big butt... ijs.  That always throws me off as well cause he's white, but white guys can have big butts, and they can't jump (LOL... I'm chuckling to myself).

You know what really grinds my gears, people NOT responding to emails.  It's like I gave you several days, you ain't that fucking busy buddy!!  And this goes for work and personal.  And I know things can get lost in the sauce but COME ON!

I'm not sure when I turn into the cheetah print chick but I am her!!  And I just got of the QVC website (don't judge my life) and there were these little sneakers with snake and other animal prints.  I immediately gravitated toward the cheetah print!  Like for real WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN?!?!?

you put the corn in the puddin and the puddin in the bowl!!

There is the mean looking little goblin man with a tear drop tat that I keep trying to speak to.  Well ok, to be fair, I thought he said hello first, when all he really did was look me in the eye and mean mug me as he walked by. And I didn't do anything to this man, I promise I didn't.  But I think I'm going to keep seeing him around as some sort or karmatic (is that a word?) punishment for me doing something to someone in my past.  Just now I waved at goblin man as I was trying to get a snack because I have not been doing so great either on WW nor snack rationing so I needed a chip.  I truly believe he grunted at me.  What may have been my saving grace is there were 2 guys walking up so I really coulda been waving to the other guy.  I mean I wasn't but you know, HE don't know that LOL

You know how everyone gained weight during Covid?  Not me!!  I actually lost weight because I had nothing to get in my way of eating right and exercising.  At one point I did a 100 days where I made sure I exercised every single day for a 100 days.  But to say I'm stagnant is an understatement.  I have maintained, but if I'm really being honest, I've gained and it is freaking me out.  I still eat pretty well and I do need my ration of chips but I have not exercised. Exercise I have found is the key for me.  I can't seem to do it just with food.  Probably also, my ass is getting older and my body just needs a shake up more often than I have been shaking it up.  But, I'll get there.  There is a young lady I follow on IG and she lost 126 pounds.  She looks amazing!  I also follow Black Women Losing Weight and they have a daily phot of someone who has lost lots of weight.  I am so glad for that motivation.

I'd like to file this under 'Shit that only happens to me!' Boom so check it (I never start like that but it felt right)... I'm at my favorite store which now currently is the Aldi's!  I do all the shopping I need to do, doesn't matter it's the 3rd time I'd been in the same week I needed more stuff.  I load my groceries in the trunk put my key as I normally do in the gap and then proceed to shut the trunk WITH THE KEY in the gap area.  I stood there in shock for a sec and then was like WELL SHIT!!  Now this is bad because I'm locked out, it's hot, and my phone is on the inside of the car because since the start of covid, I don't take my phone in stores with me.  It was my justification to not get extra germs on me.  Actually, for a while there all I was taking in the store was my car key and 1 card... well that is until I lost my card at the Whole Foods and had to cancel it and get a new card 😕 but that's another story, even though that is really all there is to the story... I took it in, most likely dropped it, called the bank immediately, and had to get another card. So back to Aldi.  I stood there more pissed than anything because I don't have my State Farm card so I don't know the number for roadside assistance and then SHIT AGAIN... I don't know anyone's number so even if I get a phone, who the hell am I gonna call? So I decided to go back into the store and ask for help because what choice do I have?  I ask the 1st cashier I see who then has to ask her manager who looks over at me like I stole something.  I'm standing there looking pitiful as hell and then she finally come over, attempts to look up the number and then hands me her phone.  I doesn't even occur to me to be concerned about the germs, I just take the phone and look up what I need to look up.  Now the systems in place now demand that you do everything online but you can't really do things online when you are borrowing someone's phone.  I finally get through to a customer service rep, and it takes a while to get through all of the information but we do, only for her to tell me to look for a text which is majorly frustrating but I just say thank you.  At this point I'm trying to decide if I am going to stand inside or go outside.  It's an overcast day but it is quite warm but after standing inside for a bit, I go outside.  A nice lady asked if I was ok.  I explained the situation and she offered to drive me home and I considered for about 2.3 seconds, but I couldn't think of where my extra key was in the house. So I stood there and then decided that I needed to sit; not sure where cause I was tired and it was hot and there was no where to sit.  Anyways, I went to go stand by my car.  The customer service rep told me lock outs usually are pretty quick, but I didn't know if that meant 20 minutes or 2 hours. So I'm standing by my car and was thirsty as hell and then decided to go into the Dollar Store to get a drink, because thankfully, even though I didn't have my key nor my phone, I did have my debit card.  I ended up getting a water and a strawberry lemonade (which was disgustingly sweet) and hang out by my car again. I don't know what made me go to the driver side door but I do and DAMMIT, it was unlocked!!  I stand there like WHAT THE ENTIRE FUCK!!!! I get in, unlock the trunk and get my key.  Then I'm thinking was it open the whole time?!?! Did I just imagine being locked out?  Did I just go through this whole rigmarole for nothing?!?!  At what point did my door unlock??  Cause I banged on the trunk.  WHY DOES THIS SHIT ONLY HAPPEN TO ME!?!? After I finish laughing at myself about this dumb situation I drive off, slightly embarrassed but for what I don't know because even if I see the cashier again, she probably won't recognize me because I still where my mask. I'm still chuckling at myself because that was one for the books!